Find Your Inner Light

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. We’re getting settled in, here in the desert and beginning to create a new way of life. There are many seasons to our lives, and it’s important to determine what you would like to grow. Me, I’ve spent my whole life toiling away to the calling of someone else’s schedule and desires. That isn’t necessarily bad, as I’ve gained compensation for that toil that has allowed me to make this life change. So I’m grateful for all that has brought me here.

This season, I’m learning how to play and enjoy what life has to offer. In spite of the turmoil of the outer world, my Inner Light is carefully cultivated to shine ever brighter. This is the most important task during these tumultuous days. First and always, connect to Spirit/God/Divine Creator/whatever Higher name you choose. Allow that energy to constantly flow into your Heart Center. If you are choosing to stay updated on current events, always bring that information into your Heart Center for Divine Discernment. Your Truth is YOUR Truth and no one else’s. Agree to disagree with others and don’t let opposing views destroy lifelong relationships, providing they are not harmful. We desperately need more of Spirit’s messages and less of human opinions in order to live our best life. Remember that you are a Divine Sovereign Soul encased in a human body; created by Spirit and placed upon the Earth to experience life. You are neither master nor slave; you are not greater or less than anyone else; just a beautiful creation learning lessons and allowing the love and light within you to grow and expand.

Take good care of your human form. It belongs to you and no one else. It was created by Spirit and filled with immense, miraculous capabilities. Listen to your inner messages of how to care for yourself. Nurture your Soul by connecting with Spirit every day. All the guidance you need comes into you directly from Spirit. You may get information from human sources, but let Spirit guide you to what is appropriate for your path. If you are troubled, fill and surround yourself with pure Divine Light.

You are on the path to the Awakening of your true Soul. Find your Inner Light and hold it bright and steady.

Re-Vital-Isation

Hello Friends,

It’s been awhile since I’ve actually written a blog article. Another strange year, to be sure, and I did spend some time writing and publishing my new book Dealing With Sh*t: Becoming Your Badass Self: Fry, Lorrie K: 9798746815446: Amazon.com: Books I’d be much obliged if you purchased a copy. If you like my brand of writing style, I have no doubt you will enjoy the newest in my line of “Sh*t” books. (not about poop, in case you were wondering)

Anyway, I have been quite busy. The Colorado winter was long and cold this year. In March, we had an enormous amount of snow. When you are retired, you naturally spend more time at home. Now, I don’t mind this, being a homebody, but I do like to get out and walk. Not bloody likely with 2 feet of snow and more coming. So we traded snowballs for cactus.

Colorado in March
Arizona in June

I had been feeling anxious and restless throughout the early months of the year. You could blame it on the snow and cold, or blame it on the viral insanity. I suppose those things are true, but it was more than that. I felt an urgency to leave Colorado. My lovely, beautiful, 5-year-old home in a great neighborhood with food and drink and shopping all within a 5 minute walk began to feel like a prison. I was constantly on edge with keeping up with maintenance, not that it needed it, but you have to keep things up to avoid bigger issues later on. My Sweetie was usually off working on a project, so I took care of things. I had plenty of entertainment at home, as well as an infinite amount of information to be found online. But something felt “off”. I longed for some fun. I longed for less responsibilities. I longed for warm weather. There is nothing quite as nice as a swimming pool, beach, patio, bistro or afternoon cocktail in the sunshine, providing it’s not too hot. We have friends that were already living in Arizona. We had made several visits in the past few years, but I wasn’t that excited about it at the time. Still in my stress-filled work coma and couldn’t appreciate the good points. But suddenly, it seemed the place to go.

In April, we took a road trip to Phoenix to see if we wanted to relocate. We took a few days and drove around, and decided that the Sun City/Sun City West area was the place to be. Plenty of things to do, shop, eat, drink and be merry – or my newfound slogan “getting jiggy in the desert with the old people”. We did some digging into the real estate, and a couple weeks later my Sweetie flew down for a couple of tours. He picked the house I hoped for, on a golf course with a beautiful view from 2 sides of the home. He made an offer and it was accepted. Then began the real work. If you have ever moved, you know that it is a great deal of work, stress, time and money. Thankfully, we were both retired and had the luxury of time. Add to that, the listing and selling of our then-current home. People traipsing through trying to get a good view of the home, but with moving boxes stacked everywhere. But it happened, and it afforded us the home, the move and a renewal of our new home.

We went from a 5 year-old home to one built in 1973. Very interesting. Now, I love mid-century modern so this was just right. A three-story home to a ranch, which is wonderful, to say the least. The prior owner had maintained the home quite well, and it has some very cool characteristics, which we are preserving. If you want to know anything about these homes, look up Del Webb and Sun City. Loads of storage, big windows and patio doors open to the outside – and get this – big clothes closets. Yes, really. Although, it was a little short on space for my shoes, but most places are short on space for my shoes. I believe I’ve written about them before.

It began as a beige box. Beige walls, ceiling, trim and carpet. We ripped out the carpet and installed laminate flooring. We painted everything white, except for accent walls in this happy yellow color, incidentally called “Smiley Face”. (The original Smiley Face was created in 1963 – a true mid-century modern icon.) It kind of makes me feel like I’m at a beach; my favorite place in the world. Talk about re-VITAL-isation.

Still a little unpacking and work to be done – waiting on library bookshelves

My anxiety and restlessness came from a serious need to release a lot of my responsibilities and learn to play and have fun. I wasn’t really having that in my Colorado life. Colorado is a beautiful state, and Denver is very vibrant, but it is all primarily oriented towards the outdoor life. Nothing wrong with that, I had done plenty of outdoorsy things. But, when you are older, you just aren’t feeling the need to pitch a tent, load/unload a camper, hike or any of that stuff. Not that older people CAN’T, but I and my Sweetie were true urbanites. If you know anything about Sun City/Sun City West, then you know it was designed for the over-55 crowd. I have seen more 80-somethings, who are healthy and active, in the 6 weeks I’ve been here than I ever have before. If you get bored here, you are probably dead. There are 8 rec centers, and probably as many golf courses (I’m not a golfer) in this city, with plenty to do at each. I’m loving the walking pool. Like a water-filled rat maze and you walk in a current. Great exercise in 100+ degree temps. And then there is Bell Road. If you can’t find a place to shop, eat, drink, get services of any kind, then you just haven’t left your house.

Have I said yet that I love it here? Let me count the ways. I feel as though I am beginning to blossom and really enjoy life. Sure, we’ve been very busy and tired from working on the house, but that is short-lived and will soon be done. And then it’s “party on, dudes”. I think it’s about time for an afternoon cocktail.

Thought For Today, June 1, 2021

Happy June! It’s been busy times; Loving Your Sh*t is in the process of moving from Denver to Phoenix. Time to get jiggy in the desert with the old people. Wait, I am one. Makes me laugh to think about that. I’m young at heart.

Words of wisdom for anyone planning a move: at least three months prior to your move, seriously go through your house like Sherman clearing Atlanta and get ready of all the shit that you don’t need, don’t want, or any excess that won’t fit in the new house – especially if you are down-sizing, because you will have enough to do just taking care of all the paperwork and packing. We’ve had 4 trips to the landfill, 10 trips to donation centers and several giveaways to friends. You will be surprised how much you really don’t need.

Thought For Today – March 25, 2021

Not everything is what it appears to be. Go within, listen to your inner guidance and pay attention to only that which resonates within you. Everything else is just a movie.

Teaser alert!: I’m working on a new book. . . more to follow.

Firewalker

I listened to this excellent video from Lorie Ladd: Facebook , where she speaks of learning to “stand in the Fire and not get burned”. What does this mean?

The Ascension energies are ramping up and moving through every aspect of life. You are being shown your inner demons, wounds, unresolved trauma, everything that has held you back from being your highest and best self. And you know what? There is no longer any place to run to and hide. No more putting this off, ignoring, denying or enacting any other coping mechanism. It is time to dig deep and heal once and for all.

It’s not easy, which is why you’ve been in denial all this time. But it will be worth it. No one can do this for you. No one can tell you how to do this. It must come from within. You can access your spiritual guides for assistance, but because of free will it is still up to you.

You may be triggered in all areas of your life. What is the common theme? Do you always feel “less than”? Work from within, not “well, this person needs to act this way”. So why do they act this way towards you? Is it because you have let them cross your boundaries? Do you let them tell you what to do? Only you are in charge of your body, mind, heart and soul. Healing yourself into assertiveness is not becoming a bully – that’s just another layer to heal.

Running away only delays the healing process and will continue to put you in situations until you do. “Same tune, different words.” It is time to face the Fire.

When It’s Dark

Last night, I listened to this awesome roundtable with Michael Jaco, Jay Campbell, Dr Christiane Northrup, Jason Shurka and Lorie Ladd. Five of my favorite Lightworkers. It is on Michael Jaco’s Youtube page. Living In Resonance: Special Valentine’s Day Roundtable – YouTube

In it, they speak about the collective Dark Night of the Soul. Something that we are all experiencing now as we shift the entire collective energy into a higher frequency. A monumental task, one which comes with no instruction manual.

What is the Dark Night of the Soul? It’s a point in time when you have hit rock bottom, don’t know what to do, can’t cope and may even think that life isn’t worth living. Yeah, some serious shit. However, if that moment puts you in imminent danger then get yourself to safety whether it be person, place or thing. Scream loudly for help.

If not imminent danger, then you might just be facedown in the muck wondering how you got there. Circumstances, poor choices, a lot of poor choices. . .but it’s hard to breathe. You can’t see any way out. What to do? ROLL OVER. Take a deep breath, because how can you think when you are hyperventilating? In other words give yourself a break. Roll over, listen to the sound of your in and out breath, feel your heartbeat and allow yourself to release the emotions. You may even need to pull your head out of your butt. Get out of your head. You do that by feeling what’s going on in your body. Then look up. Maybe you are in the bottom of the well, lying in shit, but if you got in there then there is a way back out. When you look up, you might see that opening. There might even be a bright, shining light streaming in. That is the light of hope. When you focus on hope, then you open up to possibilities and that is where the miracles live.

And you live through it.

These Dark Night of the Soul moments are points of transformation. Not only do they build our inner resiliency, but they teach us to trust ourselves and force us to honor our Soul’s desires. Maybe you had been experiencing little testing points or incidences that didn’t get your attention. Then the shitstorm comes and knocks you off your feet. But only for a little while. You emerge out of that barrel of despair a newer, stronger better version of you. Just don’t drink the barrel dry before you get out.

The Calling (reposted)

It’s 1984. The George Orwell version. A recommended read and eerily prophetic. Shhh, someone might hear you thinking.

I am starting with a music file for you to listen to: Mike + The Mechanics – Silent Running (On Dangerous Ground) (Official Video) – YouTube Recorded in 1985. The lyrics “can you hear me calling you” seemed to be an important message. So let that run in the background while I explain.

Much like the dystopian world created by Orwell, 2020 started a cycle of breakdown. Every aspect of our lives is being affected, and even controlled: physical and mental health, economy, politics, religion, government, medical systems, media, families, children, relationships, you name it, everything is a shitstorm. It has become difficult to decide who or what to trust anymore. Organizations and media, once the purveyors of information, openly dispense misleading propaganda. Many of them create fear and division by condemning anyone who questions what they promote. We have been trained to be afraid and filled with hate for a perceived threat that has no basis in fact. Do you even know what you are fighting for?

Like the Phoenix bird, the old outdated structures must burn to ashes before it can be reborn. I’m not speaking of a literal fire, so please do not go out and buy matches, lighters and flamethrowers. Even if you like roasted chicken.

We know that the Great Awakening has begun. We know that getting rid of what is not for our Highest Good is part of the process. We know that we are moving into Service to Others (compassion, cooperation) and out of Service to Self (ego, corruption). We understand that we are going through an energetic spiritual shift. But I think we are missing the true meaning. We are hearing The Calling.

The Calling is the invitation to return to God. Not by death, but by connecting. Returning to God is not about joining a church or religion. It is acknowledging that you are a Divine Child of God and that God is available to you at all times.

That may not be an easy task. Until recently, I know that even saying “God” was very difficult for me. I grew up in a religious family. I was taught that God was a fire-eyed, white-bearded, old guy up in the clouds who would rain down hellfire and lightning if you even gave someone a dirty look. I was not worthy to speak to God. It took me several decades of study and research to work through religious belief cultures. I developed spiritual beliefs and could reach God by speaking to the Angels. If you have been following me and have read my books, you know that I use the words “Spirit” and “The Universe”. That was mainly to keep things generic, as there are many name translations of “God”. However, deep down I still harbored the fear of saying the name. Why has this recently changed? It is because of the Great Awakening. Our Divine Creator has decreed that Earth shall be freed of the negative, dark controlling energies that have run rampant for centuries. God has placed a great number of Light Warriors upon Earth to fulfill this task. It is God’s Plan, not human’s plan, and is happening as it was decreed. If there has ever been a time to have Faith, it is now.

In a time when everything seems to be falling apart, you must look within yourself. Everything you are experiencing is God’s way of helping you to realize that you are a Divine Creation. God is helping you to release a lifetime of negative programming. If someone or something triggers your fear, anger or grief, dig deep and discover why you feel that way. You have to give yourself the time and space to experience those feelings. Stuffing them down got you to this point, so they won’t go away if you continue to do that. It’s okay to get mad. Go beat up a pillow so you don’t harm someone, but get it out. Have that epic meltdown; tears release stress hormones. If you are afraid, put yourself in a safe zone. Get those feelings out and start talking to God. Ask for help. Ask for a miracle. Ask to feel safe. Ask for whatever you need. God already knows what you need and has been waiting for you to ask. Nothing is off the table, except the desire to cause harm. NO ONE gets to do that.

When you develop a connection to God, you develop your sense of worth. With that comes discernment. You will know within you what is right, wrong, good, bad or whatever. You will begin to trust yourself and receive guidance from God. Then you can look out around you and know what is for your Highest Good. God’s messages come in many forms. Maybe song lyrics will hold a message (are you still listening to “Silent Running”?). Maybe you’ll find spiritual teachers who resonate with you. Or you’ll read an article or passage in a book. Whatever form that takes, you will know inside you that the message was meant for you.

Remember that you are part of the Human Collective, and your energy contributes to the overall energy of Earth. You have a choice and it is time to pick a lane. First of all, be in the driver’s seat of your life. Secondly, choose your navigator – God or Satan (there are only two choices). Third, what energy do you want to contribute to the planet? Majority rules, you know. Quit being a victim unless you want to be miserable forever. Once you have made your choice, stand your ground. Unless your choices include harming activities, no one gets to dictate to you what to choose. Standing your ground is not easy and you’ll have days when you want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Take a break, do some self-care, but get back up and dig deep for your faith. God has your back and will help you. But only if you ask.

Can you hear God calling you?

Famous!

When you take a chance on sending your work to someone you admire, they respond in a like manner. I am truly grateful for the honor. See Dr Christiane Northrup’s Facebook and Instagram.

Facebook

The Calling

It’s 1984. The George Orwell version. A recommended read and eerily prophetic. Shhh, someone might hear you thinking.

I am starting with a music file for you to listen to: Mike + The Mechanics – Silent Running (On Dangerous Ground) (Official Video) – YouTube Recorded in 1985. The lyrics “can you hear me calling you” seemed to be an important message. So let that run in the background while I explain.

Much like the dystopian world created by Orwell, 2020 started a cycle of breakdown. Every aspect of our lives is being affected, and even controlled: physical and mental health, economy, politics, religion, government, medical systems, media, families, children, relationships, you name it, everything is a shitstorm. It has become difficult to decide who or what to trust anymore. Organizations and media, once the purveyors of information, openly dispense misleading propaganda. Many of them create fear and division by condemning anyone who questions what they promote. We have been trained to be afraid and filled with hate for a perceived threat that has no basis in fact. Do you even know what you are fighting for?

Like the Phoenix bird, the old outdated structures must burn to ashes before it can be reborn. I’m not speaking of a literal fire, so please do not go out and buy matches, lighters and flamethrowers. Even if you like roasted chicken.

We know that the Great Awakening has begun. We know that getting rid of what is not for our Highest Good is part of the process. We know that we are moving into Service to Others (compassion, cooperation) and out of Service to Self (ego, corruption). We understand that we are going through an energetic spiritual shift. But I think we are missing the true meaning. We are hearing The Calling.

The Calling is the invitation to return to God. Not by death, but by connecting. Returning to God is not about joining a church or religion. It is acknowledging that you are a Divine Child of God and that God is available to you at all times.

That may not be an easy task. Until recently, I know that even saying “God” was very difficult for me. I grew up in a religious family. I was taught that God was a fire-eyed, white-bearded, old guy up in the clouds who would rain down hellfire and lighting if you even gave someone a dirty look. I was not worthy to speak to God. It took me several decades of study and research to work through religious belief cultures. I developed spiritual beliefs and could reach God by speaking to the Angels. If you have been following me and have read my books, you know that I use the words “Spirit” and “The Universe”. That was mainly to keep things generic, as there are many name translations of “God”. However, deep down I still harbored the fear of saying the name. Why has this recently changed? It is because of the Great Awakening. Our Divine Creator has decreed that Earth shall be freed of the negative, dark controlling energies that have run rampant for centuries. God has placed a great number of Light Warriors upon Earth to fulfill this task. It is God’s Plan, not human’s plan, and is happening as it was decreed. If there has ever been a time to have Faith, it is now.

In a time when everything seems to be falling apart, you must look within yourself. Everything you are experiencing is God’s way of helping you to realize that you are a Divine Creation. God is helping you to release a lifetime of negative programming. If someone or something triggers your fear, anger or grief, dig deep and discover why you feel that way. You have to give yourself the time and space to experience those feelings. Stuffing them down got you to this point, so they won’t go away if you continue to do that. It’s okay to get mad. Go beat up a pillow so you don’t harm someone, but get it out. Have that epic meltdown; tears release stress hormones. If you are afraid, put yourself in a safe zone. Get those feelings out and start talking to God. Ask for help. Ask for a miracle. Ask to feel safe. Ask for whatever you need. God already knows what you need and has been waiting for you to ask. Nothing is off the table, except the desire to cause harm. NO ONE gets to do that.

When you develop a connection to God, you develop your sense of worth. With that comes discernment. You will know within you what is right, wrong, good, bad or whatever. You will begin to trust yourself and receive guidance from God. Then you can look out around you and know what is for your Highest Good. God’s messages come in many forms. Maybe song lyrics will hold a message (are you still listening to “Silent Running”?). Maybe you’ll find spiritual teachers who resonate with you. Or you’ll read an article or passage in a book. Whatever form that takes, you will know inside you that the message was meant for you.

Remember that you are part of the Human Collective, and your energy contributes to the overall energy of Earth. You have a choice and it is time to pick a lane. First of all, be in the driver’s seat of your life. Secondly, choose your navigator – God or Satan (there are only two choices). Third, what energy do you want to contribute to the planet? Majority rules, you know. Quit being a victim unless you want to be miserable forever. Once you have made your choice, stand your ground. Unless your choices include harming activities, no one gets to dictate to you what to choose. Standing your ground is not easy and you’ll have days when you want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Take a break, do some self-care, but get back up and dig deep for your faith. God has your back and will help you. But only if you ask.

Can you hear God calling you?

I Want It Now!

This video message may or may not resonate with you. If not, just close it before you get heartburn. It is a very thought provoking message by Juan O Savin: Juan O’Savin – A summary of what is going on. – YouTube

If you know who Juan is, then you will understand the message. If not, it is about the Plan of current events. Again, this may not be for you.

The message is simple: have patience and trust God’s Plan. This past week had many folks upset, because certain actions were expected. It wasn’t the right time. Yes, we want it now, but you want everything to be completely finished so we don’t have to ever go through this again. 2020 Deja vu? HORRORS!! Think about the people who have planned this and have dodged bullets and bombs for the last 20-60 years. You can damn well bet they want this over and done. Maybe a month’s long vacation in Tahiti or someplace after they have banished evil for good.

We are ready to move forward into the New Earth. We want to clean up the mess and begin to rebuild society into a marvelous, abundant, happy and peaceful place. I can’t imagine anyone not wanting that. It is our transformation into the 5th Dimension. Notice that I wrote “begin to rebuild” and “transformation”. This is not a “won and done” situation. Like anything it is a process, and part of that process is cleaning up the shitpile inside of you. “You can’t take it with you” is very appropriate.

God and all the spiritual beings are helping you with this process. How many triggers have you encountered in this past year? Have you experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul”? Maybe more than once? Maybe you encountered health issues. Maybe around safety and security needs. Maybe your relationships became strained or even separated. Instead of going into victim mode, give thanks that your soul wounds are coming up for healing.

And maybe you thought you had already healed your “stuff”.

Think of your wounding as layers of an onion. The original trauma occurs and then as you grow older, layers build up each time you are in a situation that mimics the original wound. So healing happens in layers as you keep peeling back each one. I, too, thought I had “fixed” everything, but my relationship just hit a boil.

I have been in a romantic relationship for 13 years. I have been previously married. I am an Empath, and like most of us, put my needs last and attract narcissistic partners. Empaths often have childhood trauma of abandonment and unworthiness. I hate conflict and when things get bad, I leave. Early on in this relationship, there were some commitment issues but I thought they had been worked out. I overlooked some of the flaws, because overall, we got along well and had fun together. I shoved down my resentments of lack of support, and in typical Empath fashion, overcompensated by giving too much. I taught myself how to back down on that. I retired last year and he picked up more of the financial support, so I thought that was okay. I took on more of the household responsibilities thinking that evened it out. And then April arrived with all the “you know what” Thing. Just so you know, I am a researcher and truth seeker. I have been like that since I was a child. Being newly retired, I had ample time to dig in. And I did. And I learned far MORE than I ever could have imagined. Some of it horrific and almost unbelievable. (Cognitive Dissonance) And then I determined that I like Orange better than I liked Blue, but my partner absolutely hates Orange. I think you know what I am talking about.

I am not the type of person to push my opinions or beliefs on others. I will “test the waters” and see where you might stand on an issue. If it doesn’t resonate, I’ll let it go. No worries. If it does, then I’ll talk to you about it and share the information I have discovered. So I did that with him. That’s what you do in a relationship. Normally, if it doesn’t resonate you’ll get “I don’t agree, but I love you anyway”. Not so in this case. Name calling and shaming was what I got in return, to the point of being told that I was insane and that my opinion was wrong. He has distanced himself from me (within our house), and even wrote an email listing my supposed insane beliefs.

And that was my wake-up call from God. We all know that opinions are like a$$holes and sometimes they both stink. But they are just personal opinions and we have the right to have them, with the only exception of those that would cause deliberate harm to someone or self. Other than that, NO ONE gets to tell you what to think. I am not a parrot. This was a wake-up call to teach me to stop giving my inner being, my worth, my validation to someone else. That I am a Divine, Sovereign Child of God. That I am deserving of all of God’s gifts. That I have the right to be treated respectfully, with honor, and be in a supportive, loving, balanced relationship. That all my life I have attracted little-boy men who would have temper tantrums if I didn’t give in. Why? Because I never learned to love the little girl within me. That because she was unwanted, and had to serve penance in the form of not being a burden to them and letting them have what they missed out on. (as my mother so often reminded me)

W.T.F. I thought I had worked through all that. I did the inner child therapy and learned how to nurture myself. But what I have just realized is that – while all good – it was just another mechanism of self-sufficiency so someone else didn’t have to support my inner child. WOW. As I said, healing comes in many layers. So my spirit guides pretty much had to shove me to the wall and make me face my “teacher” in order for me to learn how to teach others how to treat me. So I have been doing a lot of praying and asking for guidance on this. I have to continuously fight my behavior pattern of leaving the situation as They have told me I’ll just keep going through this pattern until I stop and face it. (Read about dealing with narcissistic people for more info.)

Now he’s not a bad man, but he does have some level of narcissistic traits, and I have enabled him to run wild with that. Think eight-year old spoiled brat. I never had children so I lack the necessary skills of preventing this behavior. However, it’s never too late to learn.

So the point of this very soul-baring message is don’t ignore your triggers. They are God’s gift to help you see the Divine within you. You don’t need to carry your soul wounds around with you anymore. You are totally and completely worthy and deserving of everything. Welcome to the Ascension.