I Want It Now!

This video message may or may not resonate with you. If not, just close it before you get heartburn. It is a very thought provoking message by Juan O Savin: Juan O’Savin – A summary of what is going on. – YouTube

If you know who Juan is, then you will understand the message. If not, it is about the Plan of current events. Again, this may not be for you.

The message is simple: have patience and trust God’s Plan. This past week had many folks upset, because certain actions were expected. It wasn’t the right time. Yes, we want it now, but you want everything to be completely finished so we don’t have to ever go through this again. 2020 Deja vu? HORRORS!! Think about the people who have planned this and have dodged bullets and bombs for the last 20-60 years. You can damn well bet they want this over and done. Maybe a month’s long vacation in Tahiti or someplace after they have banished evil for good.

We are ready to move forward into the New Earth. We want to clean up the mess and begin to rebuild society into a marvelous, abundant, happy and peaceful place. I can’t imagine anyone not wanting that. It is our transformation into the 5th Dimension. Notice that I wrote “begin to rebuild” and “transformation”. This is not a “won and done” situation. Like anything it is a process, and part of that process is cleaning up the shitpile inside of you. “You can’t take it with you” is very appropriate.

God and all the spiritual beings are helping you with this process. How many triggers have you encountered in this past year? Have you experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul”? Maybe more than once? Maybe you encountered health issues. Maybe around safety and security needs. Maybe your relationships became strained or even separated. Instead of going into victim mode, give thanks that your soul wounds are coming up for healing.

And maybe you thought you had already healed your “stuff”.

Think of your wounding as layers of an onion. The original trauma occurs and then as you grow older, layers build up each time you are in a situation that mimics the original wound. So healing happens in layers as you keep peeling back each one. I, too, thought I had “fixed” everything, but my relationship just hit a boil.

I have been in a romantic relationship for 13 years. I have been previously married. I am an Empath, and like most of us, put my needs last and attract narcissistic partners. Empaths often have childhood trauma of abandonment and unworthiness. I hate conflict and when things get bad, I leave. Early on in this relationship, there were some commitment issues but I thought they had been worked out. I overlooked some of the flaws, because overall, we got along well and had fun together. I shoved down my resentments of lack of support, and in typical Empath fashion, overcompensated by giving too much. I taught myself how to back down on that. I retired last year and he picked up more of the financial support, so I thought that was okay. I took on more of the household responsibilities thinking that evened it out. And then April arrived with all the “you know what” Thing. Just so you know, I am a researcher and truth seeker. I have been like that since I was a child. Being newly retired, I had ample time to dig in. And I did. And I learned far MORE than I ever could have imagined. Some of it horrific and almost unbelievable. (Cognitive Dissonance) And then I determined that I like Orange better than I liked Blue, but my partner absolutely hates Orange. I think you know what I am talking about.

I am not the type of person to push my opinions or beliefs on others. I will “test the waters” and see where you might stand on an issue. If it doesn’t resonate, I’ll let it go. No worries. If it does, then I’ll talk to you about it and share the information I have discovered. So I did that with him. That’s what you do in a relationship. Normally, if it doesn’t resonate you’ll get “I don’t agree, but I love you anyway”. Not so in this case. Name calling and shaming was what I got in return, to the point of being told that I was insane and that my opinion was wrong. He has distanced himself from me (within our house), and even wrote an email listing my supposed insane beliefs.

And that was my wake-up call from God. We all know that opinions are like a$$holes and sometimes they both stink. But they are just personal opinions and we have the right to have them, with the only exception of those that would cause deliberate harm to someone or self. Other than that, NO ONE gets to tell you what to think. I am not a parrot. This was a wake-up call to teach me to stop giving my inner being, my worth, my validation to someone else. That I am a Divine, Sovereign Child of God. That I am deserving of all of God’s gifts. That I have the right to be treated respectfully, with honor, and be in a supportive, loving, balanced relationship. That all my life I have attracted little-boy men who would have temper tantrums if I didn’t give in. Why? Because I never learned to love the little girl within me. That because she was unwanted, and had to serve penance in the form of not being a burden to them and letting them have what they missed out on. (as my mother so often reminded me)

W.T.F. I thought I had worked through all that. I did the inner child therapy and learned how to nurture myself. But what I have just realized is that – while all good – it was just another mechanism of self-sufficiency so someone else didn’t have to support my inner child. WOW. As I said, healing comes in many layers. So my spirit guides pretty much had to shove me to the wall and make me face my “teacher” in order for me to learn how to teach others how to treat me. So I have been doing a lot of praying and asking for guidance on this. I have to continuously fight my behavior pattern of leaving the situation as They have told me I’ll just keep going through this pattern until I stop and face it. (Read about dealing with narcissistic people for more info.)

Now he’s not a bad man, but he does have some level of narcissistic traits, and I have enabled him to run wild with that. Think eight-year old spoiled brat. I never had children so I lack the necessary skills of preventing this behavior. However, it’s never too late to learn.

So the point of this very soul-baring message is don’t ignore your triggers. They are God’s gift to help you see the Divine within you. You don’t need to carry your soul wounds around with you anymore. You are totally and completely worthy and deserving of everything. Welcome to the Ascension.

You Are The Awakening

Last week was a roller coaster ride. Many of us had high expectations and suffered a great letdown. Others felt that their goals were achieved. Everything is unfolding as per God’s Plan, which might not be the same as your plan.

The Great Awakening has been attached to external outcomes. Yes, a massive shift in the human consciousness is what this is about. However, we get very caught up in the process. The Great Awakening is about YOU. It is your transformation, your shift, your unique process. For when you shift your awareness, the entire collective experiences that shift.

Instead of searching for answers, solutions, actions or validations outside of you – look WITHIN. Begin with whatever fears and traumas are being triggered right now. This is the point of healing. It is not necessary for you to re-live those traumas. When the fear or whatever comes upon you, step back and ask yourself what are you feeling and why. Be responsible for your emotions and the caring of yourself. Have you become dependent on others for your care or validation? Take back your power. You are a sovereign being with the Divine right to abundance, support, love, respect and honor. There is absolutely nothing wrong with receiving support from others, but you must be responsible for yourself – because no one else can give you what you truly need – Self Love.

This is The Great Awakening – loving yourself as a Divine Sovereign Being. All the rest is in God’s hands.

Reminder: God Won

It’s easy to react and get thrown off balance during the external chaotic events. It’s a time when your faith gets questioned and you might even wonder if there really is a plan to bring the world back to light. This is your cue to bring your attention back within yourself. The heavy, dark energies swirling around are intended to distract you. Those on the Dark side want your focus on them and the fear that oozes from you. It’s their food. Do you want to give your power away to those whose only goal is to control you? NO!! Pull your head out of the television screen and shut it off!! The Light is your power; the Light is within you.

Sit and breathe for a few moments. Neither focus on nor push away your thoughts. Just let them scroll through your mind. Direct your focus into your heart space. Envision it filling up with the brightest, purest light you can imagine. Breathe it in, deep into your cellular level, filling every inch of you. Let it begin to radiate outward into infinity. Now imagine yourself in a picture with everything good that you can dream of. Maybe you are on a beach, a sunny day, with beautiful azure water in front of you. Maybe you are with the love of your life, family, friends, whomever. Everyone is happy, loving, playful, a bounty of food available, all needs met with no worries of lack. Your beautiful dream. THIS is what you need to focus on. For whatever you can dream of, you can manifest into real life.

There is no lack in God’s world. There is no fear or worry. All that we have been denied is being returned to us. We are in the midst of a spiritual war, and God has already won. In the spiritual world, time in always in the Now. In the physical work, time is linear. So when the two meet, it takes some amount of time for the spiritual to become physical. We are in that state now. The battle has been won, we are just watching it play out. Eat your popcorn and have patience. If you need a bathroom break, go, you won’t miss much. Good drama takes its time. The happy ending is coming.

Keep your focus within you. Pray, meditate, clean your crystals, consult your oracle cards, whatever rituals bring you peace and clarity. Don’t add to the energy of the outside mess, unless you like replaying the drama scenes. Keep your Light shining brightly. And remember, God WON.

Welcome To 2021!

The movie credits are rolling, the lights are coming up and it’s time to sweep up the popcorn and other carcasses from the movie known as “The 2020 Horror Picture Show”. You can crawl out from under your seat now. Let’s go out into the sunshine and take a breather before 2021 starts rolling.

Yesterday, my Guides gave me a message that 2021 is about Change and Choice. Sounds a bit like a rerun. They assured me that it is not the same. Last year, much change occurred over which we had very little control or choice. Old, outdated structures were dismantled or, at least, exposed and many people did the proverbial head in the sand to avoid dealing with it. Now it is time to step up and make choices.

There will continue to be upheaval this year, but it will be with the intent of completely getting rid of what does not serve the Greater Good and rebuilding into what does. What do you want your world to look like? Peaceful and prosperous? Or more of the same old slave-debt patterns that simply wore you out. It is up to every individual to participate in creating the New Golden Age.

You see, whether you want to acknowledge it or not, 2020 was a spiritual war between God and Satan. We know how that turned out. Yes, God WON. The evil that has controlled the world for centuries has been wrestled to the ground and chained up, waiting for Archangel Michael to stuff them into a hole that they can never come out of. It does seem incredulous that we have actually experienced the time of Revelations. I am not a reader of the Bible, and have no religious affiliation, but I have read the prophecies of this chapter. God really is looking out for us and wants us to experience peace, contentment, love, abundance, prosperity and all the seriously good stuff that you can’t even imagine.

Thus the battleground of 2020.

So now it is time to get off our pandemic-fueled fat asses and focus on creating a better life. God doesn’t always fix things for us, we get ideas and resources to build things for ourselves. You have choices about how to do that. It could be as simple (and usually the most effective) to visualize and focus your energy on what you want. Maybe you get involved in a community project. Maybe you become part of a team who goes into another country and teaches others the skills to create what they want (as opposed to just building something they don’t like). Maybe you stand up to the old corrupt structures and work to change them into service to others. Maybe you become a “Voice” through media to educate and inspire change.

It is our opportunity RIGHT NOW to create a new, beautiful world in which every being is valued, loved and experiences abundance and prosperity. Isn’t that what you have been dreaming of?

Prepare For The New

It’s a good time to do a little energetic house cleaning. Burn sage, cleanse crystals, use singing bowls, play 432hz meditation music, or any other ritual that clears out negativity or old energy. Let go of whatever no longer serves you. Welcome the new Golden Age into your life!

Look Within

The lockdowns of 2020 have forced us away from friends and family. We’ve been muzzled and distanced to prevent conversations and physical touch. Many of you are alone. It’s heartbreaking and unnecessary. It might be necessary, but not in the way you think.

When I am disturbed by something, I search within to see both sides of the issue. I think the mass separation was to assist every being into looking within themselves for what they need, be it faith, truth, resilience, creativity, healing or whatever. The answers are always within you and never outside of you.

I have spoken often of the Great Awakening, humanities shift into a better way of living. That of heart-based and service to others. The release of greed, corruption, poverty, evil, egomania and other negative behaviors. A time that has been foretold and coincides with the Conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn on December 21st. Although no one really knows, it is projected that we will experience a great burst of energetic frequency that jumpstarts our path to higher living. I don’t view this as frightening or that a bunch of people will be struck down. Rather a lifting us out of heavy, negative energy. Please, God, make it quick.

What is important about the forced aloneness of 2020 is our inner healing work. Our frightened Inner Child has been screaming and having meltdowns – exactly what we need to realize what is triggering us. What has activated your tantrums this year – relationships, money, work, housing, the list is long? The repetition of the issues indicates the area(s) of your life that you need to heal. Do you want to keep reliving your crap over and over like a bad movie – or do you want to resolve it and move forward into the New Earth? Your issues may be related to the collective. Maybe it’s a family legacy or maybe just a neighborhood issue. Every step in your healing clears those connections and in all directions in time.

I know my personal pattern is with romantic relationships. I have always attracted emotionally unavailable partners with narcissistic tendencies. Ouch. Yes, I realize this and know that I am over-giving until the point of saturation and then my coping behavior is to ditch the relationship and run. Only to repeat the pattern. Admitting this is the first step to healing. Over the past month, my inner work has revealed to me a similarity in the women of my family. Out-of-wedlock or unwanted pregnancies and then lack of support by the fathers was a common theme. I was the result of this and chose not to have children for fear of perpetuating poor parenting. The root issue for me and the other women of my family is lack of self-worth. That our value to men was what we could do for them or what was between our legs. It may sound as though I hate men. I don’t. Like attracts like, so they too must have experienced patterns in their lives that taught them to be unavailable or unworthy of love. I may have attracted my partners in order to affect their healing too. Whether that happened, I don’t know and it’s not for me to know. Only my wounds are my responsibility.

So how does one begin the healing journey? First, name the trauma. Acknowledge that you experienced it in order to grow your soul and learn how to love yourself. Second, feel the feelings. Stuffing down pain and resentment just keeps it locked into your cellular structure, and it will keep erupting until you do. Connect with your Inner Child. Ask what It needs. Apologize for not honoring those needs, but that – you as the adult – will take care of and provide everything. Accept that your parents were incapable of providing for you, but forgive them for their own wounds. Nurture your Inner Child. Look at your family history and see if there is a similar pattern. Grieve for the wounding of all. Forgive them for not honoring their needs. These actions will help shift the negative energies and transmute them.

Begin to cultivate the Divine within you. Absolutely know that Divine Creator would not make someone flawed, only someone strong and capable of great learning and experiencing. You are a Divine Child of God. You are absolutely worthy of love, abundance, prosperity, peace, happiness and every other good thing you can imagine. It is all there waiting for you as YOUR DIVINE RIGHT. You have only been led to believe you are unworthy. When you can acknowledge all that is within you, you will look within for what you need. When you can act as if it is yours, you will see it manifest into your physical reality. This is all coming to each and every Divine Soul on Earth so it is important to release whatever holds you back from living a beautiful life. Take your alone time and do the inner work. I promise you it will worth it.

The Last Jedi

yoda-1091030_1920I haven’t blogged much lately. I’m not feeling inspired, but maybe it’s just because the energetic field is a bit choppy. I feel like the Last Jedi, getting bounced around in my starfighter, dodging torpedoes, and the nearest LZ is through a minefield. I think you get the idea, even if you aren’t a Star Wars fan.

I’m an Empath and I can’t shut it off. An Empath is a highly intuitive person who can sense and feel all the emotional and energetic frequency around them. An Empath can also be a Healer and naturally transmutes the frequency from low to high. Sort of a human vacuum cleaner. Normally, this is a good thing and has served me well through my life. The situation now is not normal and I’m bouncing around. I sleep 9-10 hours a night. I don’t need to go into any details about current events, but from an Empath’s view the energy goes from high to low with very little in-between. Before I go into that energy, I would like to explain how you can calm your now moment.

You must connect with your heart center. This is your solar plexus, the area where your heart and gut meet up. Think about times when you have had a “gut reaction”. Pay attention to this. If you are given information that causes an emotional reaction, pull that into your solar plexus.  How does it feel? Sick, uneasy, peaceful or happy? This is how you determine your “truth” about the information. Just because someone tells you something, does not mean it is true. You need to learn how to discern what is or isn’t true through your internal guidance system. You can also seek guidance from your spiritual connections: yours, directly to Spirit, not another person’s guidance to you. With current events running rampant with inconsistent information, you must learn to rely on yourself unless you want to get stuck in a quagmire of low energy that will wear you down.

The collective low energy vibrates in fear and anger. I have often said that “ignorance breeds fear”. Whether you want to or not, it is important to do a bit of research into what is making you afraid. Are you being told something and you are scared? Use your solar plexus to determine why you are afraid. Not dealing with fear can rupture into anger. You might project this upon someone who does not deserve your outburst. I sense a great deal of the fear-based energy when I am out in public. Part of transmuting the energy means I have to pull it through my physical body, and it moves through as anger. Yes, ick.

There is also a great deal of old grief in the collective. Many old patterns are rising to the surface to be healed. Much of this comes from the degraded feminine. Abuses, betrayals, submission, suppression, to name a few. To all the Men who are reading this article, I am not picking on you nor am I angry with you. If anything, I am angry for you because these patterns were established many centuries ago and you might not even know that this is happening. It’s the mission of both sides to unite in equal and loving ways. Children are also suffering from collective wounding. This is activating our Inner Child, and might be responsible for the many meltdowns we are witnessing in adults. So, yes, I am a little busy and a little tired. Rest assured, I am up to the task as I have much support from the spiritual realm.

The higher frequency in the collective is such that I have never felt before. It vibrates so pure, so bright, that the moment I tap into it all the yuck I have absorbed is dissipated. I am filled with a sense of peace and an absolute knowingness that everything is working out for the highest and best good and we have nothing to fear. The Universe has our backs and Divine Creator has everything under control. There is more energy in the high frequency range than there is in the low range, and it is gaining more ground each and every day. It only feels as though there is more low energy, simply because it is dense. Kind of like fog, which hangs close to the ground and blocks out the sun.

I hope this message helps you and maybe lifts your spirit a little higher. What happens when there is fog? There might be rain, or storms, but what comes after? A Rainbow, a beacon of light from Divine Creator to remind you that ALL IS WELL and you are never alone.

Thought For Today, November 6, 2020

If you had a choice, which one would you pick:

Lies, that you were told everyday and you didn’t have to do anything to get them.

Truth, that you had to search for and caused you varying levels of discomfort.

Me, I’ll take the pain of knowing the truth. My conscience would kill me otherwise.