Re-Vital-Isation

Hello Friends,

It’s been awhile since I’ve actually written a blog article. Another strange year, to be sure, and I did spend some time writing and publishing my new book Dealing With Sh*t: Becoming Your Badass Self: Fry, Lorrie K: 9798746815446: Amazon.com: Books I’d be much obliged if you purchased a copy. If you like my brand of writing style, I have no doubt you will enjoy the newest in my line of “Sh*t” books. (not about poop, in case you were wondering)

Anyway, I have been quite busy. The Colorado winter was long and cold this year. In March, we had an enormous amount of snow. When you are retired, you naturally spend more time at home. Now, I don’t mind this, being a homebody, but I do like to get out and walk. Not bloody likely with 2 feet of snow and more coming. So we traded snowballs for cactus.

Colorado in March
Arizona in June

I had been feeling anxious and restless throughout the early months of the year. You could blame it on the snow and cold, or blame it on the viral insanity. I suppose those things are true, but it was more than that. I felt an urgency to leave Colorado. My lovely, beautiful, 5-year-old home in a great neighborhood with food and drink and shopping all within a 5 minute walk began to feel like a prison. I was constantly on edge with keeping up with maintenance, not that it needed it, but you have to keep things up to avoid bigger issues later on. My Sweetie was usually off working on a project, so I took care of things. I had plenty of entertainment at home, as well as an infinite amount of information to be found online. But something felt “off”. I longed for some fun. I longed for less responsibilities. I longed for warm weather. There is nothing quite as nice as a swimming pool, beach, patio, bistro or afternoon cocktail in the sunshine, providing it’s not too hot. We have friends that were already living in Arizona. We had made several visits in the past few years, but I wasn’t that excited about it at the time. Still in my stress-filled work coma and couldn’t appreciate the good points. But suddenly, it seemed the place to go.

In April, we took a road trip to Phoenix to see if we wanted to relocate. We took a few days and drove around, and decided that the Sun City/Sun City West area was the place to be. Plenty of things to do, shop, eat, drink and be merry – or my newfound slogan “getting jiggy in the desert with the old people”. We did some digging into the real estate, and a couple weeks later my Sweetie flew down for a couple of tours. He picked the house I hoped for, on a golf course with a beautiful view from 2 sides of the home. He made an offer and it was accepted. Then began the real work. If you have ever moved, you know that it is a great deal of work, stress, time and money. Thankfully, we were both retired and had the luxury of time. Add to that, the listing and selling of our then-current home. People traipsing through trying to get a good view of the home, but with moving boxes stacked everywhere. But it happened, and it afforded us the home, the move and a renewal of our new home.

We went from a 5 year-old home to one built in 1973. Very interesting. Now, I love mid-century modern so this was just right. A three-story home to a ranch, which is wonderful, to say the least. The prior owner had maintained the home quite well, and it has some very cool characteristics, which we are preserving. If you want to know anything about these homes, look up Del Webb and Sun City. Loads of storage, big windows and patio doors open to the outside – and get this – big clothes closets. Yes, really. Although, it was a little short on space for my shoes, but most places are short on space for my shoes. I believe I’ve written about them before.

It began as a beige box. Beige walls, ceiling, trim and carpet. We ripped out the carpet and installed laminate flooring. We painted everything white, except for accent walls in this happy yellow color, incidentally called “Smiley Face”. (The original Smiley Face was created in 1963 – a true mid-century modern icon.) It kind of makes me feel like I’m at a beach; my favorite place in the world. Talk about re-VITAL-isation.

Still a little unpacking and work to be done – waiting on library bookshelves

My anxiety and restlessness came from a serious need to release a lot of my responsibilities and learn to play and have fun. I wasn’t really having that in my Colorado life. Colorado is a beautiful state, and Denver is very vibrant, but it is all primarily oriented towards the outdoor life. Nothing wrong with that, I had done plenty of outdoorsy things. But, when you are older, you just aren’t feeling the need to pitch a tent, load/unload a camper, hike or any of that stuff. Not that older people CAN’T, but I and my Sweetie were true urbanites. If you know anything about Sun City/Sun City West, then you know it was designed for the over-55 crowd. I have seen more 80-somethings, who are healthy and active, in the 6 weeks I’ve been here than I ever have before. If you get bored here, you are probably dead. There are 8 rec centers, and probably as many golf courses (I’m not a golfer) in this city, with plenty to do at each. I’m loving the walking pool. Like a water-filled rat maze and you walk in a current. Great exercise in 100+ degree temps. And then there is Bell Road. If you can’t find a place to shop, eat, drink, get services of any kind, then you just haven’t left your house.

Have I said yet that I love it here? Let me count the ways. I feel as though I am beginning to blossom and really enjoy life. Sure, we’ve been very busy and tired from working on the house, but that is short-lived and will soon be done. And then it’s “party on, dudes”. I think it’s about time for an afternoon cocktail.

Firewalker

I listened to this excellent video from Lorie Ladd: Facebook , where she speaks of learning to “stand in the Fire and not get burned”. What does this mean?

The Ascension energies are ramping up and moving through every aspect of life. You are being shown your inner demons, wounds, unresolved trauma, everything that has held you back from being your highest and best self. And you know what? There is no longer any place to run to and hide. No more putting this off, ignoring, denying or enacting any other coping mechanism. It is time to dig deep and heal once and for all.

It’s not easy, which is why you’ve been in denial all this time. But it will be worth it. No one can do this for you. No one can tell you how to do this. It must come from within. You can access your spiritual guides for assistance, but because of free will it is still up to you.

You may be triggered in all areas of your life. What is the common theme? Do you always feel “less than”? Work from within, not “well, this person needs to act this way”. So why do they act this way towards you? Is it because you have let them cross your boundaries? Do you let them tell you what to do? Only you are in charge of your body, mind, heart and soul. Healing yourself into assertiveness is not becoming a bully – that’s just another layer to heal.

Running away only delays the healing process and will continue to put you in situations until you do. “Same tune, different words.” It is time to face the Fire.

The Calling (reposted)

It’s 1984. The George Orwell version. A recommended read and eerily prophetic. Shhh, someone might hear you thinking.

I am starting with a music file for you to listen to: Mike + The Mechanics – Silent Running (On Dangerous Ground) (Official Video) – YouTube Recorded in 1985. The lyrics “can you hear me calling you” seemed to be an important message. So let that run in the background while I explain.

Much like the dystopian world created by Orwell, 2020 started a cycle of breakdown. Every aspect of our lives is being affected, and even controlled: physical and mental health, economy, politics, religion, government, medical systems, media, families, children, relationships, you name it, everything is a shitstorm. It has become difficult to decide who or what to trust anymore. Organizations and media, once the purveyors of information, openly dispense misleading propaganda. Many of them create fear and division by condemning anyone who questions what they promote. We have been trained to be afraid and filled with hate for a perceived threat that has no basis in fact. Do you even know what you are fighting for?

Like the Phoenix bird, the old outdated structures must burn to ashes before it can be reborn. I’m not speaking of a literal fire, so please do not go out and buy matches, lighters and flamethrowers. Even if you like roasted chicken.

We know that the Great Awakening has begun. We know that getting rid of what is not for our Highest Good is part of the process. We know that we are moving into Service to Others (compassion, cooperation) and out of Service to Self (ego, corruption). We understand that we are going through an energetic spiritual shift. But I think we are missing the true meaning. We are hearing The Calling.

The Calling is the invitation to return to God. Not by death, but by connecting. Returning to God is not about joining a church or religion. It is acknowledging that you are a Divine Child of God and that God is available to you at all times.

That may not be an easy task. Until recently, I know that even saying “God” was very difficult for me. I grew up in a religious family. I was taught that God was a fire-eyed, white-bearded, old guy up in the clouds who would rain down hellfire and lightning if you even gave someone a dirty look. I was not worthy to speak to God. It took me several decades of study and research to work through religious belief cultures. I developed spiritual beliefs and could reach God by speaking to the Angels. If you have been following me and have read my books, you know that I use the words “Spirit” and “The Universe”. That was mainly to keep things generic, as there are many name translations of “God”. However, deep down I still harbored the fear of saying the name. Why has this recently changed? It is because of the Great Awakening. Our Divine Creator has decreed that Earth shall be freed of the negative, dark controlling energies that have run rampant for centuries. God has placed a great number of Light Warriors upon Earth to fulfill this task. It is God’s Plan, not human’s plan, and is happening as it was decreed. If there has ever been a time to have Faith, it is now.

In a time when everything seems to be falling apart, you must look within yourself. Everything you are experiencing is God’s way of helping you to realize that you are a Divine Creation. God is helping you to release a lifetime of negative programming. If someone or something triggers your fear, anger or grief, dig deep and discover why you feel that way. You have to give yourself the time and space to experience those feelings. Stuffing them down got you to this point, so they won’t go away if you continue to do that. It’s okay to get mad. Go beat up a pillow so you don’t harm someone, but get it out. Have that epic meltdown; tears release stress hormones. If you are afraid, put yourself in a safe zone. Get those feelings out and start talking to God. Ask for help. Ask for a miracle. Ask to feel safe. Ask for whatever you need. God already knows what you need and has been waiting for you to ask. Nothing is off the table, except the desire to cause harm. NO ONE gets to do that.

When you develop a connection to God, you develop your sense of worth. With that comes discernment. You will know within you what is right, wrong, good, bad or whatever. You will begin to trust yourself and receive guidance from God. Then you can look out around you and know what is for your Highest Good. God’s messages come in many forms. Maybe song lyrics will hold a message (are you still listening to “Silent Running”?). Maybe you’ll find spiritual teachers who resonate with you. Or you’ll read an article or passage in a book. Whatever form that takes, you will know inside you that the message was meant for you.

Remember that you are part of the Human Collective, and your energy contributes to the overall energy of Earth. You have a choice and it is time to pick a lane. First of all, be in the driver’s seat of your life. Secondly, choose your navigator – God or Satan (there are only two choices). Third, what energy do you want to contribute to the planet? Majority rules, you know. Quit being a victim unless you want to be miserable forever. Once you have made your choice, stand your ground. Unless your choices include harming activities, no one gets to dictate to you what to choose. Standing your ground is not easy and you’ll have days when you want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Take a break, do some self-care, but get back up and dig deep for your faith. God has your back and will help you. But only if you ask.

Can you hear God calling you?

The Calling

It’s 1984. The George Orwell version. A recommended read and eerily prophetic. Shhh, someone might hear you thinking.

I am starting with a music file for you to listen to: Mike + The Mechanics – Silent Running (On Dangerous Ground) (Official Video) – YouTube Recorded in 1985. The lyrics “can you hear me calling you” seemed to be an important message. So let that run in the background while I explain.

Much like the dystopian world created by Orwell, 2020 started a cycle of breakdown. Every aspect of our lives is being affected, and even controlled: physical and mental health, economy, politics, religion, government, medical systems, media, families, children, relationships, you name it, everything is a shitstorm. It has become difficult to decide who or what to trust anymore. Organizations and media, once the purveyors of information, openly dispense misleading propaganda. Many of them create fear and division by condemning anyone who questions what they promote. We have been trained to be afraid and filled with hate for a perceived threat that has no basis in fact. Do you even know what you are fighting for?

Like the Phoenix bird, the old outdated structures must burn to ashes before it can be reborn. I’m not speaking of a literal fire, so please do not go out and buy matches, lighters and flamethrowers. Even if you like roasted chicken.

We know that the Great Awakening has begun. We know that getting rid of what is not for our Highest Good is part of the process. We know that we are moving into Service to Others (compassion, cooperation) and out of Service to Self (ego, corruption). We understand that we are going through an energetic spiritual shift. But I think we are missing the true meaning. We are hearing The Calling.

The Calling is the invitation to return to God. Not by death, but by connecting. Returning to God is not about joining a church or religion. It is acknowledging that you are a Divine Child of God and that God is available to you at all times.

That may not be an easy task. Until recently, I know that even saying “God” was very difficult for me. I grew up in a religious family. I was taught that God was a fire-eyed, white-bearded, old guy up in the clouds who would rain down hellfire and lighting if you even gave someone a dirty look. I was not worthy to speak to God. It took me several decades of study and research to work through religious belief cultures. I developed spiritual beliefs and could reach God by speaking to the Angels. If you have been following me and have read my books, you know that I use the words “Spirit” and “The Universe”. That was mainly to keep things generic, as there are many name translations of “God”. However, deep down I still harbored the fear of saying the name. Why has this recently changed? It is because of the Great Awakening. Our Divine Creator has decreed that Earth shall be freed of the negative, dark controlling energies that have run rampant for centuries. God has placed a great number of Light Warriors upon Earth to fulfill this task. It is God’s Plan, not human’s plan, and is happening as it was decreed. If there has ever been a time to have Faith, it is now.

In a time when everything seems to be falling apart, you must look within yourself. Everything you are experiencing is God’s way of helping you to realize that you are a Divine Creation. God is helping you to release a lifetime of negative programming. If someone or something triggers your fear, anger or grief, dig deep and discover why you feel that way. You have to give yourself the time and space to experience those feelings. Stuffing them down got you to this point, so they won’t go away if you continue to do that. It’s okay to get mad. Go beat up a pillow so you don’t harm someone, but get it out. Have that epic meltdown; tears release stress hormones. If you are afraid, put yourself in a safe zone. Get those feelings out and start talking to God. Ask for help. Ask for a miracle. Ask to feel safe. Ask for whatever you need. God already knows what you need and has been waiting for you to ask. Nothing is off the table, except the desire to cause harm. NO ONE gets to do that.

When you develop a connection to God, you develop your sense of worth. With that comes discernment. You will know within you what is right, wrong, good, bad or whatever. You will begin to trust yourself and receive guidance from God. Then you can look out around you and know what is for your Highest Good. God’s messages come in many forms. Maybe song lyrics will hold a message (are you still listening to “Silent Running”?). Maybe you’ll find spiritual teachers who resonate with you. Or you’ll read an article or passage in a book. Whatever form that takes, you will know inside you that the message was meant for you.

Remember that you are part of the Human Collective, and your energy contributes to the overall energy of Earth. You have a choice and it is time to pick a lane. First of all, be in the driver’s seat of your life. Secondly, choose your navigator – God or Satan (there are only two choices). Third, what energy do you want to contribute to the planet? Majority rules, you know. Quit being a victim unless you want to be miserable forever. Once you have made your choice, stand your ground. Unless your choices include harming activities, no one gets to dictate to you what to choose. Standing your ground is not easy and you’ll have days when you want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Take a break, do some self-care, but get back up and dig deep for your faith. God has your back and will help you. But only if you ask.

Can you hear God calling you?

You Are The Awakening

Last week was a roller coaster ride. Many of us had high expectations and suffered a great letdown. Others felt that their goals were achieved. Everything is unfolding as per God’s Plan, which might not be the same as your plan.

The Great Awakening has been attached to external outcomes. Yes, a massive shift in the human consciousness is what this is about. However, we get very caught up in the process. The Great Awakening is about YOU. It is your transformation, your shift, your unique process. For when you shift your awareness, the entire collective experiences that shift.

Instead of searching for answers, solutions, actions or validations outside of you – look WITHIN. Begin with whatever fears and traumas are being triggered right now. This is the point of healing. It is not necessary for you to re-live those traumas. When the fear or whatever comes upon you, step back and ask yourself what are you feeling and why. Be responsible for your emotions and the caring of yourself. Have you become dependent on others for your care or validation? Take back your power. You are a sovereign being with the Divine right to abundance, support, love, respect and honor. There is absolutely nothing wrong with receiving support from others, but you must be responsible for yourself – because no one else can give you what you truly need – Self Love.

This is The Great Awakening – loving yourself as a Divine Sovereign Being. All the rest is in God’s hands.

Focus!!

Right now, it is very important to FOCUS on what you WANT in your life. Ignore the fear porn going on around you. Put your attention and your thoughts into creating POSITIVE things in your life. Want to stay healthy? Focus on that. Need a job or money? Focus on what that looks like. Good relationships? Put your thoughts into action.

Watching external events is like being stuck in The Matrix. Channel your inner Neo and step out of it by putting your attention into positive action.

You’ve got this!

The Pressure Is Building

Today is December 14th and the Solar Eclipse. The energies today feel like they are pressing down upon us, sort of like squeezing a boil. (I know, gross.) Anger and frustration might be rubbing on your nerves. Breathe. Take as many quiet breaks as you can. We’ll get through this.

the Point of No Return

There is no going back to the old way of living. That might sound ominous to you, like scary even. Today is 12/12, a powerful energy, a change. Today feels to me like the door has been closed to what was. The old ways are gone and the Light has won. It is the time of the Great Awakening, the shift into a new Golden Age, into a life of cooperative caring. The ending of corruption, greed, ego dominance, suffering and all that keeps you in a lower energy. You don’t want the “old normal” to come back.

If you would like more understanding of the Great Awakening, here are some people to follow: Tim Whild, Lorie Ladd, Elizabeth Peru, Diana Cooper and Barbara Marciniak. They have a wealth of knowledge, videos, and meditations to raise your vibration and guide you into the New Golden Age – The Age of Aquarius.

Right now, we just need to watch the breakdown of the old systems. And just like a movie theater, the paper cups and popcorn carcasses must be swept up and disposed of. We’re in a pretty big movie theater, so it will take some time. And then, it will be time for the rebuilding – the creating of a world where we live in prosperity, abundance and caring. We get to decide what it looks like. Do you want the Good Life or do you want the old normal of lack?

Look Within

The lockdowns of 2020 have forced us away from friends and family. We’ve been muzzled and distanced to prevent conversations and physical touch. Many of you are alone. It’s heartbreaking and unnecessary. It might be necessary, but not in the way you think.

When I am disturbed by something, I search within to see both sides of the issue. I think the mass separation was to assist every being into looking within themselves for what they need, be it faith, truth, resilience, creativity, healing or whatever. The answers are always within you and never outside of you.

I have spoken often of the Great Awakening, humanities shift into a better way of living. That of heart-based and service to others. The release of greed, corruption, poverty, evil, egomania and other negative behaviors. A time that has been foretold and coincides with the Conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn on December 21st. Although no one really knows, it is projected that we will experience a great burst of energetic frequency that jumpstarts our path to higher living. I don’t view this as frightening or that a bunch of people will be struck down. Rather a lifting us out of heavy, negative energy. Please, God, make it quick.

What is important about the forced aloneness of 2020 is our inner healing work. Our frightened Inner Child has been screaming and having meltdowns – exactly what we need to realize what is triggering us. What has activated your tantrums this year – relationships, money, work, housing, the list is long? The repetition of the issues indicates the area(s) of your life that you need to heal. Do you want to keep reliving your crap over and over like a bad movie – or do you want to resolve it and move forward into the New Earth? Your issues may be related to the collective. Maybe it’s a family legacy or maybe just a neighborhood issue. Every step in your healing clears those connections and in all directions in time.

I know my personal pattern is with romantic relationships. I have always attracted emotionally unavailable partners with narcissistic tendencies. Ouch. Yes, I realize this and know that I am over-giving until the point of saturation and then my coping behavior is to ditch the relationship and run. Only to repeat the pattern. Admitting this is the first step to healing. Over the past month, my inner work has revealed to me a similarity in the women of my family. Out-of-wedlock or unwanted pregnancies and then lack of support by the fathers was a common theme. I was the result of this and chose not to have children for fear of perpetuating poor parenting. The root issue for me and the other women of my family is lack of self-worth. That our value to men was what we could do for them or what was between our legs. It may sound as though I hate men. I don’t. Like attracts like, so they too must have experienced patterns in their lives that taught them to be unavailable or unworthy of love. I may have attracted my partners in order to affect their healing too. Whether that happened, I don’t know and it’s not for me to know. Only my wounds are my responsibility.

So how does one begin the healing journey? First, name the trauma. Acknowledge that you experienced it in order to grow your soul and learn how to love yourself. Second, feel the feelings. Stuffing down pain and resentment just keeps it locked into your cellular structure, and it will keep erupting until you do. Connect with your Inner Child. Ask what It needs. Apologize for not honoring those needs, but that – you as the adult – will take care of and provide everything. Accept that your parents were incapable of providing for you, but forgive them for their own wounds. Nurture your Inner Child. Look at your family history and see if there is a similar pattern. Grieve for the wounding of all. Forgive them for not honoring their needs. These actions will help shift the negative energies and transmute them.

Begin to cultivate the Divine within you. Absolutely know that Divine Creator would not make someone flawed, only someone strong and capable of great learning and experiencing. You are a Divine Child of God. You are absolutely worthy of love, abundance, prosperity, peace, happiness and every other good thing you can imagine. It is all there waiting for you as YOUR DIVINE RIGHT. You have only been led to believe you are unworthy. When you can acknowledge all that is within you, you will look within for what you need. When you can act as if it is yours, you will see it manifest into your physical reality. This is all coming to each and every Divine Soul on Earth so it is important to release whatever holds you back from living a beautiful life. Take your alone time and do the inner work. I promise you it will worth it.

The Last Jedi

yoda-1091030_1920I haven’t blogged much lately. I’m not feeling inspired, but maybe it’s just because the energetic field is a bit choppy. I feel like the Last Jedi, getting bounced around in my starfighter, dodging torpedoes, and the nearest LZ is through a minefield. I think you get the idea, even if you aren’t a Star Wars fan.

I’m an Empath and I can’t shut it off. An Empath is a highly intuitive person who can sense and feel all the emotional and energetic frequency around them. An Empath can also be a Healer and naturally transmutes the frequency from low to high. Sort of a human vacuum cleaner. Normally, this is a good thing and has served me well through my life. The situation now is not normal and I’m bouncing around. I sleep 9-10 hours a night. I don’t need to go into any details about current events, but from an Empath’s view the energy goes from high to low with very little in-between. Before I go into that energy, I would like to explain how you can calm your now moment.

You must connect with your heart center. This is your solar plexus, the area where your heart and gut meet up. Think about times when you have had a “gut reaction”. Pay attention to this. If you are given information that causes an emotional reaction, pull that into your solar plexus.  How does it feel? Sick, uneasy, peaceful or happy? This is how you determine your “truth” about the information. Just because someone tells you something, does not mean it is true. You need to learn how to discern what is or isn’t true through your internal guidance system. You can also seek guidance from your spiritual connections: yours, directly to Spirit, not another person’s guidance to you. With current events running rampant with inconsistent information, you must learn to rely on yourself unless you want to get stuck in a quagmire of low energy that will wear you down.

The collective low energy vibrates in fear and anger. I have often said that “ignorance breeds fear”. Whether you want to or not, it is important to do a bit of research into what is making you afraid. Are you being told something and you are scared? Use your solar plexus to determine why you are afraid. Not dealing with fear can rupture into anger. You might project this upon someone who does not deserve your outburst. I sense a great deal of the fear-based energy when I am out in public. Part of transmuting the energy means I have to pull it through my physical body, and it moves through as anger. Yes, ick.

There is also a great deal of old grief in the collective. Many old patterns are rising to the surface to be healed. Much of this comes from the degraded feminine. Abuses, betrayals, submission, suppression, to name a few. To all the Men who are reading this article, I am not picking on you nor am I angry with you. If anything, I am angry for you because these patterns were established many centuries ago and you might not even know that this is happening. It’s the mission of both sides to unite in equal and loving ways. Children are also suffering from collective wounding. This is activating our Inner Child, and might be responsible for the many meltdowns we are witnessing in adults. So, yes, I am a little busy and a little tired. Rest assured, I am up to the task as I have much support from the spiritual realm.

The higher frequency in the collective is such that I have never felt before. It vibrates so pure, so bright, that the moment I tap into it all the yuck I have absorbed is dissipated. I am filled with a sense of peace and an absolute knowingness that everything is working out for the highest and best good and we have nothing to fear. The Universe has our backs and Divine Creator has everything under control. There is more energy in the high frequency range than there is in the low range, and it is gaining more ground each and every day. It only feels as though there is more low energy, simply because it is dense. Kind of like fog, which hangs close to the ground and blocks out the sun.

I hope this message helps you and maybe lifts your spirit a little higher. What happens when there is fog? There might be rain, or storms, but what comes after? A Rainbow, a beacon of light from Divine Creator to remind you that ALL IS WELL and you are never alone.