Look Within

The lockdowns of 2020 have forced us away from friends and family. We’ve been muzzled and distanced to prevent conversations and physical touch. Many of you are alone. It’s heartbreaking and unnecessary. It might be necessary, but not in the way you think.

When I am disturbed by something, I search within to see both sides of the issue. I think the mass separation was to assist every being into looking within themselves for what they need, be it faith, truth, resilience, creativity, healing or whatever. The answers are always within you and never outside of you.

I have spoken often of the Great Awakening, humanities shift into a better way of living. That of heart-based and service to others. The release of greed, corruption, poverty, evil, egomania and other negative behaviors. A time that has been foretold and coincides with the Conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn on December 21st. Although no one really knows, it is projected that we will experience a great burst of energetic frequency that jumpstarts our path to higher living. I don’t view this as frightening or that a bunch of people will be struck down. Rather a lifting us out of heavy, negative energy. Please, God, make it quick.

What is important about the forced aloneness of 2020 is our inner healing work. Our frightened Inner Child has been screaming and having meltdowns – exactly what we need to realize what is triggering us. What has activated your tantrums this year – relationships, money, work, housing, the list is long? The repetition of the issues indicates the area(s) of your life that you need to heal. Do you want to keep reliving your crap over and over like a bad movie – or do you want to resolve it and move forward into the New Earth? Your issues may be related to the collective. Maybe it’s a family legacy or maybe just a neighborhood issue. Every step in your healing clears those connections and in all directions in time.

I know my personal pattern is with romantic relationships. I have always attracted emotionally unavailable partners with narcissistic tendencies. Ouch. Yes, I realize this and know that I am over-giving until the point of saturation and then my coping behavior is to ditch the relationship and run. Only to repeat the pattern. Admitting this is the first step to healing. Over the past month, my inner work has revealed to me a similarity in the women of my family. Out-of-wedlock or unwanted pregnancies and then lack of support by the fathers was a common theme. I was the result of this and chose not to have children for fear of perpetuating poor parenting. The root issue for me and the other women of my family is lack of self-worth. That our value to men was what we could do for them or what was between our legs. It may sound as though I hate men. I don’t. Like attracts like, so they too must have experienced patterns in their lives that taught them to be unavailable or unworthy of love. I may have attracted my partners in order to affect their healing too. Whether that happened, I don’t know and it’s not for me to know. Only my wounds are my responsibility.

So how does one begin the healing journey? First, name the trauma. Acknowledge that you experienced it in order to grow your soul and learn how to love yourself. Second, feel the feelings. Stuffing down pain and resentment just keeps it locked into your cellular structure, and it will keep erupting until you do. Connect with your Inner Child. Ask what It needs. Apologize for not honoring those needs, but that – you as the adult – will take care of and provide everything. Accept that your parents were incapable of providing for you, but forgive them for their own wounds. Nurture your Inner Child. Look at your family history and see if there is a similar pattern. Grieve for the wounding of all. Forgive them for not honoring their needs. These actions will help shift the negative energies and transmute them.

Begin to cultivate the Divine within you. Absolutely know that Divine Creator would not make someone flawed, only someone strong and capable of great learning and experiencing. You are a Divine Child of God. You are absolutely worthy of love, abundance, prosperity, peace, happiness and every other good thing you can imagine. It is all there waiting for you as YOUR DIVINE RIGHT. You have only been led to believe you are unworthy. When you can acknowledge all that is within you, you will look within for what you need. When you can act as if it is yours, you will see it manifest into your physical reality. This is all coming to each and every Divine Soul on Earth so it is important to release whatever holds you back from living a beautiful life. Take your alone time and do the inner work. I promise you it will worth it.

The Last Jedi

yoda-1091030_1920I haven’t blogged much lately. I’m not feeling inspired, but maybe it’s just because the energetic field is a bit choppy. I feel like the Last Jedi, getting bounced around in my starfighter, dodging torpedoes, and the nearest LZ is through a minefield. I think you get the idea, even if you aren’t a Star Wars fan.

I’m an Empath and I can’t shut it off. An Empath is a highly intuitive person who can sense and feel all the emotional and energetic frequency around them. An Empath can also be a Healer and naturally transmutes the frequency from low to high. Sort of a human vacuum cleaner. Normally, this is a good thing and has served me well through my life. The situation now is not normal and I’m bouncing around. I sleep 9-10 hours a night. I don’t need to go into any details about current events, but from an Empath’s view the energy goes from high to low with very little in-between. Before I go into that energy, I would like to explain how you can calm your now moment.

You must connect with your heart center. This is your solar plexus, the area where your heart and gut meet up. Think about times when you have had a “gut reaction”. Pay attention to this. If you are given information that causes an emotional reaction, pull that into your solar plexus.  How does it feel? Sick, uneasy, peaceful or happy? This is how you determine your “truth” about the information. Just because someone tells you something, does not mean it is true. You need to learn how to discern what is or isn’t true through your internal guidance system. You can also seek guidance from your spiritual connections: yours, directly to Spirit, not another person’s guidance to you. With current events running rampant with inconsistent information, you must learn to rely on yourself unless you want to get stuck in a quagmire of low energy that will wear you down.

The collective low energy vibrates in fear and anger. I have often said that “ignorance breeds fear”. Whether you want to or not, it is important to do a bit of research into what is making you afraid. Are you being told something and you are scared? Use your solar plexus to determine why you are afraid. Not dealing with fear can rupture into anger. You might project this upon someone who does not deserve your outburst. I sense a great deal of the fear-based energy when I am out in public. Part of transmuting the energy means I have to pull it through my physical body, and it moves through as anger. Yes, ick.

There is also a great deal of old grief in the collective. Many old patterns are rising to the surface to be healed. Much of this comes from the degraded feminine. Abuses, betrayals, submission, suppression, to name a few. To all the Men who are reading this article, I am not picking on you nor am I angry with you. If anything, I am angry for you because these patterns were established many centuries ago and you might not even know that this is happening. It’s the mission of both sides to unite in equal and loving ways. Children are also suffering from collective wounding. This is activating our Inner Child, and might be responsible for the many meltdowns we are witnessing in adults. So, yes, I am a little busy and a little tired. Rest assured, I am up to the task as I have much support from the spiritual realm.

The higher frequency in the collective is such that I have never felt before. It vibrates so pure, so bright, that the moment I tap into it all the yuck I have absorbed is dissipated. I am filled with a sense of peace and an absolute knowingness that everything is working out for the highest and best good and we have nothing to fear. The Universe has our backs and Divine Creator has everything under control. There is more energy in the high frequency range than there is in the low range, and it is gaining more ground each and every day. It only feels as though there is more low energy, simply because it is dense. Kind of like fog, which hangs close to the ground and blocks out the sun.

I hope this message helps you and maybe lifts your spirit a little higher. What happens when there is fog? There might be rain, or storms, but what comes after? A Rainbow, a beacon of light from Divine Creator to remind you that ALL IS WELL and you are never alone.

The Great Reckoning

2020 has been referred to as “The Great Awakening”, the year in which people are becoming aware and educated to all of the evil and corruption that has held control of our planet for centuries.  I am also calling it “The Great Reckoning” in which a mirror is being held up to each of us to recognize who and what we are.

2020 is the transformation to the new Golden Age, the Age of Aquarius, a new way of life that includes: peace, prosperity, equality, happiness, free energy, vibrant health, abundance and service to all of humanity.  Sounds wonderful, yes?  I don’t think we can even grasp what this means.  We have been taught that we are unworthy so any crumb will be wonderful, but can’t imagine getting the entire cake.  If you are reading this, know that you made a soul agreement to be here at this time so something deep within you KNOWS that we are moving into the greatest existence ever on this planet.  Hang in there and live through this, ’cause you deserve the goodness that is coming.  It has been decreed by Divine Creator, and nothing can stop this.

Our human existence on Earth was Divine Creator’s experiment of free will choice.  The mission was to grow our spirit, give and receive love, and then find our way back to Spirit.  Along the way, this got highjacked by an evil group of people who decided that they should control all the stuff, all the money, and all the people.  Fantastic technology that would have provided free, non-harmful energy, optimum healthcare without drugs, and other amazing things was snatched by them and hidden from our view.  Take a look at the US Patent website and you will see some of what is being released.  They took over the banking system and turned the world into a slave-debt society.  They pumped us full of chemicalized food and lethal pharmaceuticals, keeping us locked into poor health and foggy brains.  The media narrative controlled us through a barrage of propaganda further breaking us down.  Is it a wonder why society is at war with each other?

This system, otherwise tagged “The Matrix” is breaking down before our very eyes.  And now it is time to rebuild it into something better.  Greed, corruption, evil, all these negative things will not be going forward.  It doesn’t exist in the new Golden Age.

It starts with YOU.  That is why I have tagged this “The Great Reckoning”.  You see, you can’t rebuild something new until you tear down the old.  I believe that 2020 is a mirror for every single person, forcing us to look at our deepest selves.  What has your life looked like until now?  Who have you been?  First of all, don’t expect or even claim perfection.  Free will choice, remember.  Start with gratitude.  Thank yourself for all you are and all that you have done.  There is a beautiful soul in there, somewhere.  Next, forgive yourself.  For what you have done wrong, for who you have harmed, for how badly you have treated yourself.  Then, get to work on the cleanup.  If you have soul wounds, look that pain straight in the eye and deal with it.  Get help if you need to.  But heal it, you must, as it can’t go with you into the Golden Age. Get your health in order. If you’ve been an absolute shit, then you better get right with yourself and decide how you are going to make amends and make changes.  This also will not be going into the Golden Age.  The Golden Age is Service to Others and not Service to Self.  If you have tried to do the best you can, then open your heart to new ideas to serve humanity.

If you haven’t looked in the mirror yet, it’s time.  Forget the messy hair and wrinkles, look at your SOUL, the infinitely beautiful YOU.  Envision what you want the new world to look like.  Keep your focus on that vision.  Watch it come into reality.  You have the power.

What Is Right With Me?

How many times have you said to yourself “what is Wrong with me?!”, followed by an internal laundry list or repetitive behavior pattern to validate your wrongness.  Let me count the ways.

I struggled with this again a day ago as I was feeling out-of-sorts and wondering why I keep processing the same repetitive thoughts.  “What IS wrong with me that I can’t figure this out?!!!”  So I asked my favorite guide, Archangel Michael, to help me.

First, he reminded me that I am an Empath and therefore subject to internalizing the energies of those around me. Secondly, he reminded me that, due to the current ongoing 5D Ascension process, all buried emotions are rising to the surface to be healed and they are very intense.  In other words, take it easy on myself.

I drew a series of Oracle cards and they were direct in stating that my little world is safe, protected and fine.  But the next one indicated that I needed to get out of the negative situation.  So of course, I focused on that.  What did that mean?  That everything that was fine really wasn’t?  Then I pulled the positive thoughts card.  Hmmm.  I did this before bedtime, so I stopped drawing cards and instead asked AA Michael to communicate in my dreams what I really needed to know.

And He did.  AA Michael is really awesome about such stuff.  And do you know that I woke up and very clearly heard the words “why don’t you ask yourself – what is Right with me?”.  Well, Wow!  Of course, I never thought of that.

I think we are always quick to judge ourselves in negative ways.  We are programmed from birth to follow rules and belief systems handed down to us by our families, quite often through the use of “don’t do that”.  We probably experienced shaming by our peers and a whole host of others things that someone instilled in our minds that we were “less than”.  These might have been repetitive and we learned to believe them.  We attracted people into our lives that were mirrors of these messages, never thinking to challenge the messages or look at the beautiful parts of ourselves.

Never dreaming of using the words “what is RIGHT with me”, until an unconditionally loving Angel reminds us to see the Divine within.

So I did, and you know what?  Those things that were troubling me just melted into nothingness.  And I didn’t even need to make a list of those “right” things.

Published – Book #2!

I am excited to announce my 2nd book: “Loving Your Sh*t – A Journey Through Healing Into Ascension”.  You can purchase it now on Amazon:

This manual explains The Great Awakening – an overview of 2020 and what ascension into the 5th dimension means for the energetic human body.  Each section describes the new 12 chakra energy body and the healing lessons associated with each.  2020 is about cleaning up your emotional and behavioral baggage so your transition is less stressful.

Sanity Is Within You

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So many people are feeling out-of-sorts, stressed, angry, sad, and even slightly nutty.  We should all give ourselves a break considering the wild ride of the first half of 2020.  Messages of doom and gloom, inciting fear, added to conflicting information, comes rocketing at us from every direction.  You can’t help but feel a little bit insane, and begin to doubt yourself.

Stop that crazy train and take a good long look at your life.  Up until January, what has your life looked like?  Have you been in a career?  Are you able to support yourself?  Do you have a family?  Do you have a home and are you able to provide food and other necessities for yourself and your family?  If you answer yes to one or more of those questions, then you’ve have likely led a reasonably normal life.  Maybe your life is still like that, in spite of the outside world.  Seems pretty sane to me.

Then everything changed.  And you have talked about it with everyone.  Maybe differing opinions have entered your conversations.  Maybe discussions have been heated.  Maybe even you are not on speaking terms with some people.  Maybe words like “I don’t understand you” or “radical” have been tossed around.  And doubt is now roiling around in your gut like bad pastrami.

It’s not them, and it’s not YOU.

The planet has been building up a pile of sh*t for eons.  Every angry word, every incident of disrespect, every act of putting someone down, every moment of shame, blame and guilt, everything that is harmful to another, has been stuffed down and suppressed for our entire existence.  And like bad pastrami, it’s gotta come out.  (I know, disgusting analogy, but you can agree it’s effective.)  The time has come to . . . deal with our mess.

Just as you would if you had an upset tummy, you spend some time alone.  You rest, turn off the television or other noise, drink some tea, and maybe soothe yourself by soaking in a warm bathtub.  In other words, nurture yourself.

All that outside noise, is just that: NOISE.  Tune it out and stay out of the fray.  Don’t get sucked into a nonsensical battle with your nearest and dearest, because all of this is just temporary.

The world is going through a change, and the present insanity is a necessary part of the process.  How can something become better if you don’t clean out the bad plumbing?  It was destined to happen, and it will all be for the better, so the less you resist the easier it goes.

If you are the warrior type, then find a positive place where you take action.  If it is angry and fearful, that is not where you want to put your energy.  If you are the behind-the-scenes worker type, then put your energy into helping others.  If you are just trying to manage your life, then fill yourself up with the energy of Love.

What is the energy of Love?  Honoring yourself and your needs.  You are lovable and valuable.  You treat yourself as you want to be treated.  Loving yourself is not selfish – it is NECESSARY.  When you fill yourself with Love, you light up like a beacon.  People are drawn to your radiance, and it shines outward to everyone you come in contact with, thereby changing their frequency to that of Love.  What do you think would happen if everyone did this?  Think about that for a moment.  Pretty spectacular, huh?  The insanity, kinda like, disappears doesn’t it?

How ’bout we start right now and agree to fill ourselves with Love every single day.  I’m in.

Thought For Today – June 27th

Stay neutral.  Many people are stressed and snappy with all that is going on.  Don’t get sucked into their emotional turmoil.  Take a deep breath and let it roll off of you.  None of it is about you.

Hold The Light

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I needn’t have to tell you how crazy things are.  The THING is still an issue, we’ve witnessed the awful destruction of a beautiful human’s life, which has escalated into riots, and 6 planets are in retrograde this month.  Including my dear little friend Mercury, who plans on garbling the communication even more.  It’s no wonder we are all feeling a little crabby and out-of-sorts.

You must Hold The Light.

It’s tough when negativity is beating at you every day.  Many of you are still out of work and struggling.  Those who are back at work are making up for lost time and long for the days when they could sleep in.  Signs everywhere telling you what you can and can’t do and where you need to be.  News channels incessantly blathering about gloom and doom.  I think we need to mask all news media and prevent them from speaking.

The Light will overcome the Dark, but you must Hold The Light.  By that, I mean that you must hunker down within yourself and call down the brilliant and powerful energies from the Universe.  Call down the Angels.  Call down the Ascended Masters.  Call down all the Higher Dimensional Beings available to help each and every one of us from falling into negativity.  Ask them to help you.

Focus intently on what you wish to see in your life.  Powerful manifestation is available to all of us, so use it wisely.  Use your imagination to place a video screen out in front of you.  Project onto it your skills, your desires, your joy for the life you want to live.  See it like a movie with you as the starring role and write the story.

Hold that vision clear and keep your thoughts directed towards it.  You are capable of bringing this into physical reality.

Stay away from mainstream media as much as possible.  It is filled with conflicting information and enough negative hype to start its own fire.  Instead, go out in nature even if for five minutes.  Suck in some fresh air, let the sun soak into your skin and listen to the birdsongs.  Take a moment to sit and relax.  Nap or sleep.  Eat well.  And laugh.

The more of us who keep our inner light shining bright, the more the negative energy recedes and eventually dissolves until there will be no more dark.  Imagine what a life filled with joy, cooperation, harmony and abundance looks like.  Make it so.

Happy Mother’s Day

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There are a multitude of sources regarding the origination of Mother’s Day, and all for good reason.  I like to think of it as honoring the nurturing aspect of a woman towards a child.  However, many women are not mothers, including me, but that doesn’t lessen the capability of nurturing.  Nor do I think it is limited to the female gender.

Nurturing is a deeply-ingrained capacity to care for another, and a full expression of love.  Anyone can act in the capacity of a mother simply through this self-less, generous expression.  The first step to nurturing is turning it inwards to yourself.  You cannot give to others freely, without first giving to yourself.

Nurturing is honoring yourself when you are tired, just as a father puts a cranky child to bed.  It is feeding yourself when you are hungry, as a mother nurses a hungry baby.  It is motivating yourself to fulfill your passions, as a parent encourages a child to build their skills.

To love yourself unconditionally by honoring your body, your needs and your very existence, all of which is learned in your early childhood.  If those needs were not met when you were a child, it is never to late to nurture yourself.  You act out when your inner child is not being cared for.  Ask yourself what you need and do that.  Give yourself a hug and tell your child-self that you are loved and cared for and protected.  When you begin to mother yourself, you will no longer seek it outside of you.  Your relationships will become more meaningful and your total well-being will feel happy.

Happy Mother’s Day to all of us.