I Want It Now!

This video message may or may not resonate with you. If not, just close it before you get heartburn. It is a very thought provoking message by Juan O Savin: Juan O’Savin – A summary of what is going on. – YouTube

If you know who Juan is, then you will understand the message. If not, it is about the Plan of current events. Again, this may not be for you.

The message is simple: have patience and trust God’s Plan. This past week had many folks upset, because certain actions were expected. It wasn’t the right time. Yes, we want it now, but you want everything to be completely finished so we don’t have to ever go through this again. 2020 Deja vu? HORRORS!! Think about the people who have planned this and have dodged bullets and bombs for the last 20-60 years. You can damn well bet they want this over and done. Maybe a month’s long vacation in Tahiti or someplace after they have banished evil for good.

We are ready to move forward into the New Earth. We want to clean up the mess and begin to rebuild society into a marvelous, abundant, happy and peaceful place. I can’t imagine anyone not wanting that. It is our transformation into the 5th Dimension. Notice that I wrote “begin to rebuild” and “transformation”. This is not a “won and done” situation. Like anything it is a process, and part of that process is cleaning up the shitpile inside of you. “You can’t take it with you” is very appropriate.

God and all the spiritual beings are helping you with this process. How many triggers have you encountered in this past year? Have you experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul”? Maybe more than once? Maybe you encountered health issues. Maybe around safety and security needs. Maybe your relationships became strained or even separated. Instead of going into victim mode, give thanks that your soul wounds are coming up for healing.

And maybe you thought you had already healed your “stuff”.

Think of your wounding as layers of an onion. The original trauma occurs and then as you grow older, layers build up each time you are in a situation that mimics the original wound. So healing happens in layers as you keep peeling back each one. I, too, thought I had “fixed” everything, but my relationship just hit a boil.

I have been in a romantic relationship for 13 years. I have been previously married. I am an Empath, and like most of us, put my needs last and attract narcissistic partners. Empaths often have childhood trauma of abandonment and unworthiness. I hate conflict and when things get bad, I leave. Early on in this relationship, there were some commitment issues but I thought they had been worked out. I overlooked some of the flaws, because overall, we got along well and had fun together. I shoved down my resentments of lack of support, and in typical Empath fashion, overcompensated by giving too much. I taught myself how to back down on that. I retired last year and he picked up more of the financial support, so I thought that was okay. I took on more of the household responsibilities thinking that evened it out. And then April arrived with all the “you know what” Thing. Just so you know, I am a researcher and truth seeker. I have been like that since I was a child. Being newly retired, I had ample time to dig in. And I did. And I learned far MORE than I ever could have imagined. Some of it horrific and almost unbelievable. (Cognitive Dissonance) And then I determined that I like Orange better than I liked Blue, but my partner absolutely hates Orange. I think you know what I am talking about.

I am not the type of person to push my opinions or beliefs on others. I will “test the waters” and see where you might stand on an issue. If it doesn’t resonate, I’ll let it go. No worries. If it does, then I’ll talk to you about it and share the information I have discovered. So I did that with him. That’s what you do in a relationship. Normally, if it doesn’t resonate you’ll get “I don’t agree, but I love you anyway”. Not so in this case. Name calling and shaming was what I got in return, to the point of being told that I was insane and that my opinion was wrong. He has distanced himself from me (within our house), and even wrote an email listing my supposed insane beliefs.

And that was my wake-up call from God. We all know that opinions are like a$$holes and sometimes they both stink. But they are just personal opinions and we have the right to have them, with the only exception of those that would cause deliberate harm to someone or self. Other than that, NO ONE gets to tell you what to think. I am not a parrot. This was a wake-up call to teach me to stop giving my inner being, my worth, my validation to someone else. That I am a Divine, Sovereign Child of God. That I am deserving of all of God’s gifts. That I have the right to be treated respectfully, with honor, and be in a supportive, loving, balanced relationship. That all my life I have attracted little-boy men who would have temper tantrums if I didn’t give in. Why? Because I never learned to love the little girl within me. That because she was unwanted, and had to serve penance in the form of not being a burden to them and letting them have what they missed out on. (as my mother so often reminded me)

W.T.F. I thought I had worked through all that. I did the inner child therapy and learned how to nurture myself. But what I have just realized is that – while all good – it was just another mechanism of self-sufficiency so someone else didn’t have to support my inner child. WOW. As I said, healing comes in many layers. So my spirit guides pretty much had to shove me to the wall and make me face my “teacher” in order for me to learn how to teach others how to treat me. So I have been doing a lot of praying and asking for guidance on this. I have to continuously fight my behavior pattern of leaving the situation as They have told me I’ll just keep going through this pattern until I stop and face it. (Read about dealing with narcissistic people for more info.)

Now he’s not a bad man, but he does have some level of narcissistic traits, and I have enabled him to run wild with that. Think eight-year old spoiled brat. I never had children so I lack the necessary skills of preventing this behavior. However, it’s never too late to learn.

So the point of this very soul-baring message is don’t ignore your triggers. They are God’s gift to help you see the Divine within you. You don’t need to carry your soul wounds around with you anymore. You are totally and completely worthy and deserving of everything. Welcome to the Ascension.

You Are The Awakening

Last week was a roller coaster ride. Many of us had high expectations and suffered a great letdown. Others felt that their goals were achieved. Everything is unfolding as per God’s Plan, which might not be the same as your plan.

The Great Awakening has been attached to external outcomes. Yes, a massive shift in the human consciousness is what this is about. However, we get very caught up in the process. The Great Awakening is about YOU. It is your transformation, your shift, your unique process. For when you shift your awareness, the entire collective experiences that shift.

Instead of searching for answers, solutions, actions or validations outside of you – look WITHIN. Begin with whatever fears and traumas are being triggered right now. This is the point of healing. It is not necessary for you to re-live those traumas. When the fear or whatever comes upon you, step back and ask yourself what are you feeling and why. Be responsible for your emotions and the caring of yourself. Have you become dependent on others for your care or validation? Take back your power. You are a sovereign being with the Divine right to abundance, support, love, respect and honor. There is absolutely nothing wrong with receiving support from others, but you must be responsible for yourself – because no one else can give you what you truly need – Self Love.

This is The Great Awakening – loving yourself as a Divine Sovereign Being. All the rest is in God’s hands.

Thought For Today, January 21, 2021

Last I checked, God was still in charge. Keep your faith and trust in God – no matter what. Look within yourself for truth. Use discernment in what other people are saying, by pulling the information within and asking God to help you see the truth.

Reminder: God Won

It’s easy to react and get thrown off balance during the external chaotic events. It’s a time when your faith gets questioned and you might even wonder if there really is a plan to bring the world back to light. This is your cue to bring your attention back within yourself. The heavy, dark energies swirling around are intended to distract you. Those on the Dark side want your focus on them and the fear that oozes from you. It’s their food. Do you want to give your power away to those whose only goal is to control you? NO!! Pull your head out of the television screen and shut it off!! The Light is your power; the Light is within you.

Sit and breathe for a few moments. Neither focus on nor push away your thoughts. Just let them scroll through your mind. Direct your focus into your heart space. Envision it filling up with the brightest, purest light you can imagine. Breathe it in, deep into your cellular level, filling every inch of you. Let it begin to radiate outward into infinity. Now imagine yourself in a picture with everything good that you can dream of. Maybe you are on a beach, a sunny day, with beautiful azure water in front of you. Maybe you are with the love of your life, family, friends, whomever. Everyone is happy, loving, playful, a bounty of food available, all needs met with no worries of lack. Your beautiful dream. THIS is what you need to focus on. For whatever you can dream of, you can manifest into real life.

There is no lack in God’s world. There is no fear or worry. All that we have been denied is being returned to us. We are in the midst of a spiritual war, and God has already won. In the spiritual world, time in always in the Now. In the physical work, time is linear. So when the two meet, it takes some amount of time for the spiritual to become physical. We are in that state now. The battle has been won, we are just watching it play out. Eat your popcorn and have patience. If you need a bathroom break, go, you won’t miss much. Good drama takes its time. The happy ending is coming.

Keep your focus within you. Pray, meditate, clean your crystals, consult your oracle cards, whatever rituals bring you peace and clarity. Don’t add to the energy of the outside mess, unless you like replaying the drama scenes. Keep your Light shining brightly. And remember, God WON.