I Want It Now!

This video message may or may not resonate with you. If not, just close it before you get heartburn. It is a very thought provoking message by Juan O Savin: Juan O’Savin – A summary of what is going on. – YouTube

If you know who Juan is, then you will understand the message. If not, it is about the Plan of current events. Again, this may not be for you.

The message is simple: have patience and trust God’s Plan. This past week had many folks upset, because certain actions were expected. It wasn’t the right time. Yes, we want it now, but you want everything to be completely finished so we don’t have to ever go through this again. 2020 Deja vu? HORRORS!! Think about the people who have planned this and have dodged bullets and bombs for the last 20-60 years. You can damn well bet they want this over and done. Maybe a month’s long vacation in Tahiti or someplace after they have banished evil for good.

We are ready to move forward into the New Earth. We want to clean up the mess and begin to rebuild society into a marvelous, abundant, happy and peaceful place. I can’t imagine anyone not wanting that. It is our transformation into the 5th Dimension. Notice that I wrote “begin to rebuild” and “transformation”. This is not a “won and done” situation. Like anything it is a process, and part of that process is cleaning up the shitpile inside of you. “You can’t take it with you” is very appropriate.

God and all the spiritual beings are helping you with this process. How many triggers have you encountered in this past year? Have you experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul”? Maybe more than once? Maybe you encountered health issues. Maybe around safety and security needs. Maybe your relationships became strained or even separated. Instead of going into victim mode, give thanks that your soul wounds are coming up for healing.

And maybe you thought you had already healed your “stuff”.

Think of your wounding as layers of an onion. The original trauma occurs and then as you grow older, layers build up each time you are in a situation that mimics the original wound. So healing happens in layers as you keep peeling back each one. I, too, thought I had “fixed” everything, but my relationship just hit a boil.

I have been in a romantic relationship for 13 years. I have been previously married. I am an Empath, and like most of us, put my needs last and attract narcissistic partners. Empaths often have childhood trauma of abandonment and unworthiness. I hate conflict and when things get bad, I leave. Early on in this relationship, there were some commitment issues but I thought they had been worked out. I overlooked some of the flaws, because overall, we got along well and had fun together. I shoved down my resentments of lack of support, and in typical Empath fashion, overcompensated by giving too much. I taught myself how to back down on that. I retired last year and he picked up more of the financial support, so I thought that was okay. I took on more of the household responsibilities thinking that evened it out. And then April arrived with all the “you know what” Thing. Just so you know, I am a researcher and truth seeker. I have been like that since I was a child. Being newly retired, I had ample time to dig in. And I did. And I learned far MORE than I ever could have imagined. Some of it horrific and almost unbelievable. (Cognitive Dissonance) And then I determined that I like Orange better than I liked Blue, but my partner absolutely hates Orange. I think you know what I am talking about.

I am not the type of person to push my opinions or beliefs on others. I will “test the waters” and see where you might stand on an issue. If it doesn’t resonate, I’ll let it go. No worries. If it does, then I’ll talk to you about it and share the information I have discovered. So I did that with him. That’s what you do in a relationship. Normally, if it doesn’t resonate you’ll get “I don’t agree, but I love you anyway”. Not so in this case. Name calling and shaming was what I got in return, to the point of being told that I was insane and that my opinion was wrong. He has distanced himself from me (within our house), and even wrote an email listing my supposed insane beliefs.

And that was my wake-up call from God. We all know that opinions are like a$$holes and sometimes they both stink. But they are just personal opinions and we have the right to have them, with the only exception of those that would cause deliberate harm to someone or self. Other than that, NO ONE gets to tell you what to think. I am not a parrot. This was a wake-up call to teach me to stop giving my inner being, my worth, my validation to someone else. That I am a Divine, Sovereign Child of God. That I am deserving of all of God’s gifts. That I have the right to be treated respectfully, with honor, and be in a supportive, loving, balanced relationship. That all my life I have attracted little-boy men who would have temper tantrums if I didn’t give in. Why? Because I never learned to love the little girl within me. That because she was unwanted, and had to serve penance in the form of not being a burden to them and letting them have what they missed out on. (as my mother so often reminded me)

W.T.F. I thought I had worked through all that. I did the inner child therapy and learned how to nurture myself. But what I have just realized is that – while all good – it was just another mechanism of self-sufficiency so someone else didn’t have to support my inner child. WOW. As I said, healing comes in many layers. So my spirit guides pretty much had to shove me to the wall and make me face my “teacher” in order for me to learn how to teach others how to treat me. So I have been doing a lot of praying and asking for guidance on this. I have to continuously fight my behavior pattern of leaving the situation as They have told me I’ll just keep going through this pattern until I stop and face it. (Read about dealing with narcissistic people for more info.)

Now he’s not a bad man, but he does have some level of narcissistic traits, and I have enabled him to run wild with that. Think eight-year old spoiled brat. I never had children so I lack the necessary skills of preventing this behavior. However, it’s never too late to learn.

So the point of this very soul-baring message is don’t ignore your triggers. They are God’s gift to help you see the Divine within you. You don’t need to carry your soul wounds around with you anymore. You are totally and completely worthy and deserving of everything. Welcome to the Ascension.

Look Within

The lockdowns of 2020 have forced us away from friends and family. We’ve been muzzled and distanced to prevent conversations and physical touch. Many of you are alone. It’s heartbreaking and unnecessary. It might be necessary, but not in the way you think.

When I am disturbed by something, I search within to see both sides of the issue. I think the mass separation was to assist every being into looking within themselves for what they need, be it faith, truth, resilience, creativity, healing or whatever. The answers are always within you and never outside of you.

I have spoken often of the Great Awakening, humanities shift into a better way of living. That of heart-based and service to others. The release of greed, corruption, poverty, evil, egomania and other negative behaviors. A time that has been foretold and coincides with the Conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn on December 21st. Although no one really knows, it is projected that we will experience a great burst of energetic frequency that jumpstarts our path to higher living. I don’t view this as frightening or that a bunch of people will be struck down. Rather a lifting us out of heavy, negative energy. Please, God, make it quick.

What is important about the forced aloneness of 2020 is our inner healing work. Our frightened Inner Child has been screaming and having meltdowns – exactly what we need to realize what is triggering us. What has activated your tantrums this year – relationships, money, work, housing, the list is long? The repetition of the issues indicates the area(s) of your life that you need to heal. Do you want to keep reliving your crap over and over like a bad movie – or do you want to resolve it and move forward into the New Earth? Your issues may be related to the collective. Maybe it’s a family legacy or maybe just a neighborhood issue. Every step in your healing clears those connections and in all directions in time.

I know my personal pattern is with romantic relationships. I have always attracted emotionally unavailable partners with narcissistic tendencies. Ouch. Yes, I realize this and know that I am over-giving until the point of saturation and then my coping behavior is to ditch the relationship and run. Only to repeat the pattern. Admitting this is the first step to healing. Over the past month, my inner work has revealed to me a similarity in the women of my family. Out-of-wedlock or unwanted pregnancies and then lack of support by the fathers was a common theme. I was the result of this and chose not to have children for fear of perpetuating poor parenting. The root issue for me and the other women of my family is lack of self-worth. That our value to men was what we could do for them or what was between our legs. It may sound as though I hate men. I don’t. Like attracts like, so they too must have experienced patterns in their lives that taught them to be unavailable or unworthy of love. I may have attracted my partners in order to affect their healing too. Whether that happened, I don’t know and it’s not for me to know. Only my wounds are my responsibility.

So how does one begin the healing journey? First, name the trauma. Acknowledge that you experienced it in order to grow your soul and learn how to love yourself. Second, feel the feelings. Stuffing down pain and resentment just keeps it locked into your cellular structure, and it will keep erupting until you do. Connect with your Inner Child. Ask what It needs. Apologize for not honoring those needs, but that – you as the adult – will take care of and provide everything. Accept that your parents were incapable of providing for you, but forgive them for their own wounds. Nurture your Inner Child. Look at your family history and see if there is a similar pattern. Grieve for the wounding of all. Forgive them for not honoring their needs. These actions will help shift the negative energies and transmute them.

Begin to cultivate the Divine within you. Absolutely know that Divine Creator would not make someone flawed, only someone strong and capable of great learning and experiencing. You are a Divine Child of God. You are absolutely worthy of love, abundance, prosperity, peace, happiness and every other good thing you can imagine. It is all there waiting for you as YOUR DIVINE RIGHT. You have only been led to believe you are unworthy. When you can acknowledge all that is within you, you will look within for what you need. When you can act as if it is yours, you will see it manifest into your physical reality. This is all coming to each and every Divine Soul on Earth so it is important to release whatever holds you back from living a beautiful life. Take your alone time and do the inner work. I promise you it will worth it.

The Last Jedi

yoda-1091030_1920I haven’t blogged much lately. I’m not feeling inspired, but maybe it’s just because the energetic field is a bit choppy. I feel like the Last Jedi, getting bounced around in my starfighter, dodging torpedoes, and the nearest LZ is through a minefield. I think you get the idea, even if you aren’t a Star Wars fan.

I’m an Empath and I can’t shut it off. An Empath is a highly intuitive person who can sense and feel all the emotional and energetic frequency around them. An Empath can also be a Healer and naturally transmutes the frequency from low to high. Sort of a human vacuum cleaner. Normally, this is a good thing and has served me well through my life. The situation now is not normal and I’m bouncing around. I sleep 9-10 hours a night. I don’t need to go into any details about current events, but from an Empath’s view the energy goes from high to low with very little in-between. Before I go into that energy, I would like to explain how you can calm your now moment.

You must connect with your heart center. This is your solar plexus, the area where your heart and gut meet up. Think about times when you have had a “gut reaction”. Pay attention to this. If you are given information that causes an emotional reaction, pull that into your solar plexus.  How does it feel? Sick, uneasy, peaceful or happy? This is how you determine your “truth” about the information. Just because someone tells you something, does not mean it is true. You need to learn how to discern what is or isn’t true through your internal guidance system. You can also seek guidance from your spiritual connections: yours, directly to Spirit, not another person’s guidance to you. With current events running rampant with inconsistent information, you must learn to rely on yourself unless you want to get stuck in a quagmire of low energy that will wear you down.

The collective low energy vibrates in fear and anger. I have often said that “ignorance breeds fear”. Whether you want to or not, it is important to do a bit of research into what is making you afraid. Are you being told something and you are scared? Use your solar plexus to determine why you are afraid. Not dealing with fear can rupture into anger. You might project this upon someone who does not deserve your outburst. I sense a great deal of the fear-based energy when I am out in public. Part of transmuting the energy means I have to pull it through my physical body, and it moves through as anger. Yes, ick.

There is also a great deal of old grief in the collective. Many old patterns are rising to the surface to be healed. Much of this comes from the degraded feminine. Abuses, betrayals, submission, suppression, to name a few. To all the Men who are reading this article, I am not picking on you nor am I angry with you. If anything, I am angry for you because these patterns were established many centuries ago and you might not even know that this is happening. It’s the mission of both sides to unite in equal and loving ways. Children are also suffering from collective wounding. This is activating our Inner Child, and might be responsible for the many meltdowns we are witnessing in adults. So, yes, I am a little busy and a little tired. Rest assured, I am up to the task as I have much support from the spiritual realm.

The higher frequency in the collective is such that I have never felt before. It vibrates so pure, so bright, that the moment I tap into it all the yuck I have absorbed is dissipated. I am filled with a sense of peace and an absolute knowingness that everything is working out for the highest and best good and we have nothing to fear. The Universe has our backs and Divine Creator has everything under control. There is more energy in the high frequency range than there is in the low range, and it is gaining more ground each and every day. It only feels as though there is more low energy, simply because it is dense. Kind of like fog, which hangs close to the ground and blocks out the sun.

I hope this message helps you and maybe lifts your spirit a little higher. What happens when there is fog? There might be rain, or storms, but what comes after? A Rainbow, a beacon of light from Divine Creator to remind you that ALL IS WELL and you are never alone.

5D Ascension 101

Mastering your emotions is the first step to 5th dimensional ascension.  You might wonder how to do that with all the fear, anger and turmoil rolling across the Earth.  For too long, humans have ignored and stuffed down painful emotions, and they are now boiling up like lobster in a pot.

You must allow these emotions to surface in order to heal them.  What situations trigger your emotional response?  What emotions are rising within you?  Most negative emotions are the result of a perceived lack of control.  Fear is the response when we don’t feel we have control.  Anger is the response when we feel control has been taken from us.  Examine each response and look within yourself to understand where these originate.  Connect with Divine Source and bring within you unconditional love for self, and trust that you will be given guidance to provide for yourself all that you need.

You cannot control what anyone else says or does, you can only control your response.  If someone is harming you, then fear is an appropriate response but use it to propel you into action.  Anger can be turned into a boundary setting response.  However, blame or shame will only keep you connected to the other person’s energy and does nothing to help you.  Forgiveness should be turned inward as a self-loving gesture to let go of that connection.

Mastering your emotions is allowing yourself the space to feel, but then to step into a state of neutrality.  This leaves a space for self-love and boundaries.  Negativity from another is about them, not you.  The best emotion to master is that of joy, and the knowingness that you are capable of supporting yourself no matter what the circumstance.

This Explains It

And people look at me like I’m Big Bird, when I try to explain the “Great Awakening”.

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I Can’t Believe What I Heard

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I’m reposting this, because there is a lot of cognitive dissonance going on right now.  The important thing to remember is that your truth is that which resonates within you.  Does it make you feel good or does it make you feel bad?
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Cognitive dissonance occurs when you suddenly hear completely conflicting information about a long-held belief.  It causes stress and anxiety, and can change your brain pathways to that which resemble someone with PTSD.

A good example of cognitive dissonance is someone who began smoking during the years that the Marlboro Man commercials were running.  Sexy, mysterious, the actor playing this role made smoking look cool and tough.  These ads were soon followed by Joe Camel.  Both depicted a habit that was thought to be completely acceptable.  And then. . .lung cancer became the new enemy.

Many smokers went into complete denial.  “That won’t happen to me.”  Some thought they should just cut back.  And there were others who probably thought “what the hell, I’m going to die someday, anyway” and increased their consumption.  These behaviors were maladaptive, in order to lessen the belief’s conflict.  Cognitive dissonance occurred when they encountered someone, or heard evidence of smoking-induced lung cancer.  Cortisol would flood the body and eventually contribute to chronic inflammation, the root cause of most diseases.

Cognitive dissonance can occur when a trusted source of information suddenly denounces everything they supported, or even removes evidence of such.  I believe we are in a time when such things are occurring.  So, how do you reconcile conflicting beliefs?

Avoidance can be helpful, but might be just putting your head in the sand.  Defiance, which may or may not get you into trouble.  Changing your belief, but you might want to perform due diligence of fact-checking both sets of beliefs.  But ultimately, it comes down to what do you feel in your gut.  Your gut is an extremely powerful sensory device.  You’ve had that sick feeling when you are around someone who makes you feel bad or is scary.  Trust that feeling.  Make time for meditation so you can tune into the Universe and ask for guidance.  Don’t worry if you don’t hear anything immediately.  The Universe will get the answer to you in multiple ways, even with a song playing over and over in your head.  When you feel inside that you have your truth, seek out like-minded individuals who will support you.

Just don’t make yourself sick over someone’s lies.

Sanity Is Within You

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So many people are feeling out-of-sorts, stressed, angry, sad, and even slightly nutty.  We should all give ourselves a break considering the wild ride of the first half of 2020.  Messages of doom and gloom, inciting fear, added to conflicting information, comes rocketing at us from every direction.  You can’t help but feel a little bit insane, and begin to doubt yourself.

Stop that crazy train and take a good long look at your life.  Up until January, what has your life looked like?  Have you been in a career?  Are you able to support yourself?  Do you have a family?  Do you have a home and are you able to provide food and other necessities for yourself and your family?  If you answer yes to one or more of those questions, then you’ve have likely led a reasonably normal life.  Maybe your life is still like that, in spite of the outside world.  Seems pretty sane to me.

Then everything changed.  And you have talked about it with everyone.  Maybe differing opinions have entered your conversations.  Maybe discussions have been heated.  Maybe even you are not on speaking terms with some people.  Maybe words like “I don’t understand you” or “radical” have been tossed around.  And doubt is now roiling around in your gut like bad pastrami.

It’s not them, and it’s not YOU.

The planet has been building up a pile of sh*t for eons.  Every angry word, every incident of disrespect, every act of putting someone down, every moment of shame, blame and guilt, everything that is harmful to another, has been stuffed down and suppressed for our entire existence.  And like bad pastrami, it’s gotta come out.  (I know, disgusting analogy, but you can agree it’s effective.)  The time has come to . . . deal with our mess.

Just as you would if you had an upset tummy, you spend some time alone.  You rest, turn off the television or other noise, drink some tea, and maybe soothe yourself by soaking in a warm bathtub.  In other words, nurture yourself.

All that outside noise, is just that: NOISE.  Tune it out and stay out of the fray.  Don’t get sucked into a nonsensical battle with your nearest and dearest, because all of this is just temporary.

The world is going through a change, and the present insanity is a necessary part of the process.  How can something become better if you don’t clean out the bad plumbing?  It was destined to happen, and it will all be for the better, so the less you resist the easier it goes.

If you are the warrior type, then find a positive place where you take action.  If it is angry and fearful, that is not where you want to put your energy.  If you are the behind-the-scenes worker type, then put your energy into helping others.  If you are just trying to manage your life, then fill yourself up with the energy of Love.

What is the energy of Love?  Honoring yourself and your needs.  You are lovable and valuable.  You treat yourself as you want to be treated.  Loving yourself is not selfish – it is NECESSARY.  When you fill yourself with Love, you light up like a beacon.  People are drawn to your radiance, and it shines outward to everyone you come in contact with, thereby changing their frequency to that of Love.  What do you think would happen if everyone did this?  Think about that for a moment.  Pretty spectacular, huh?  The insanity, kinda like, disappears doesn’t it?

How ’bout we start right now and agree to fill ourselves with Love every single day.  I’m in.

Thought For Today – June 27th

Stay neutral.  Many people are stressed and snappy with all that is going on.  Don’t get sucked into their emotional turmoil.  Take a deep breath and let it roll off of you.  None of it is about you.

The Only Thing We Have To Fear. . .

“. . . is fear itself.”  This statement was made by Franklin D Roosevelt during his March 4th, 1933 inaugural address.  It is more powerful now than it was then.  Why?  Because fear is an illusion designed to keep you stressed and not focusing on what it important.

Fear and its cousins, worry and anxiety, produce a stress response in your body.  The “flight or fight” syndrome that floods you with cortisol and adrenaline.  These combine to create inflammation, the root cause of most all diseases.

Fear is the belief that you have no control over the unknown.  Who does?  You can’t control people so their behavior is always an unknown.  Fear keeps you unable to access your inner resources and guidance to find solutions or just a different view of the situation.

How do you stay out of fear?  Accept the fact that the only thing you can control is you and your response.  Like attracts like, so put the brakes on those negative thoughts.  Let’s say you just lost your job.  Yes, that is scary and brings fear.  Allow yourself some time to process those emotions.  The loss of anything brings grief.  Feel that and notice where in your body you feel the most pain.  Be gentle and care for your body.  Breathe deep and allow yourself some rest.  When you can calm your body’s response and slow down your breathing, you will be able to think clearly.

When you stay in fear, your questions become statements.  “I can’t afford this or that.”  “I won’t find a job earning what I was.”  “I don’t have benefits.”

Begin with having gratitude for what you have.  This puts you in the mindset of receiving.  Review your skills, such as updating your resume.  What skills do you have that you might not have been utilizing?  Can you act upon them?  Do you have the resources to work from home?  Who do you network with?  These questions help you focus on positive, action-oriented thoughts, and will guide you to next steps.  Visualize that the right job is waiting for you.

Do you see how this changes?  Fear and negativity put you in the mode of creating beliefs; the kind you don’t want to keep in your mind.  When you move into a state of calm and express gratitude, your thoughts become questions which open up possibilities.  Then you can use your visualization skills to attract the perfect situation.

Worry and fear is running rampant, and global media gets all jiggy with hyping that up.  Avoid it as much as possible.  Instead, go for a walk or sit in nature.  Absorb the sun and beauty of the outdoors.  Get a little exercise to release any tension in your body.  Getting on, in or near water is very calming.  Nature is the best anti-anxiety medicine ever and it is free.  Use your nose to breathe as much as possible.  Mouth breathing is shallow and activates the stress response.  Meditate, or just sit quietly and let your thoughts roll through your head.

If you wish that this worry and fear would go away, don’t feed it.  Take control of your thoughts, and keep them in the realm of higher energy.  Everything you need is within you.  Honor that.  Listen to yourself.  Love yourself.  Care for your being as though it is the most precious thing you have.  That is how you destroy fear.