Saturn Return. If you have read anything about astrology, you will know what that means and it might stir up dreadful feelings. If you have heard of the 27 Club, you will also know what it means. (The 27 Club is the group of musicians and others who didn’t make it past their 27th birthday.)
Saturn takes 27-29 years to move through the astrological signs. It begins when you are born, and whatever sign it is in will set up challenges and opportunities for your life. Saturn is the sign of structure. It defines boundaries, responsibilities and commitments, but can also be limiting and restricting. It is quite adept at revealing our weakest links. But if you use Saturn’s transits, the rewards can be great as you can achieve your highest dreams.
When Saturn makes its returns in your sign, it can be tumultuous. If you haven’t gotten your sh*t together by then, it will force you to do it. Saturn is the ultimate taskmaster. The first go-around is the call to leave adolescence behind and learn to support yourself. Resisting that push will have you living in your parents’ basement and doing chores for an allowance. Avoiding it altogether might get you dead. If you can embrace it, you open doors to create the life of your dreams. “Okay, Vanna, I’ll take Door #2, the one covered in gold.”
The second Saturn Return occurs between the ages of 57-60. It can also be especially painful, as it is Life Review time and when your mortality becomes visible. “Why are we even here?!” will scream loudly inside your head. Unfulfilled dreams will roil inside your guts, demanding to be released. Throw up or throw down the gauntlet and get them going. Start small, make it big or make it little, just do something to settle your tummy or you might just wither away. Sounds depressing. Saturn can do that if you get fixated upon the negative or let other people dictate who you are.
Saturn was in Capricorn when I was born. Capricorns are known for their work ethics. They are responsible and practical. My Sun Sign is Leo. Leos are courageous, kind, generous and loyal. You put those two together and you have someone who takes care of everything. Yep, that’s me. Saturn returned to Capricorn on December 19, 2017 and will remain there until March 21, 2020. I am up to my eyeballs in Saturn’s rotation and it has kicked my a$$ this past year. It hasn’t helped that most of the other planets went in and out of retrograde too. Being it Capricorn, it has been all about work and responsibility. While it has taken me down due to the nasty people I’ve dealt with, it also propelled me to complete an enormous amount of projects and new ways of doing things.
It really does make you look at your mortality too, not that I feel I’ll check out anytime soon. It’s more in how you have lived your life and what purpose that is. I look at all the work and all the people I’ve taken care of and wonder “what for?”. I just read a line in a novel that said something like “you have to go back to where you came from in order to understand where you are going.” Hmm. Of course, the first thing that came to mind was being unwanted and my mother’s treatment of me. But as I relived some of that, my thoughts also were that it made me strong, resilient, and capable. I could have wallowed in anger, became a sponge, and limited myself. Instead, I went to college, worked my way up the work ladder, bought homes and cars and whatever else I needed. I wouldn’t call myself wealthy, but I have a nice home, a lifestyle I enjoy, a good partner and the ability to retire. I wouldn’t have that if I didn’t heed Saturn’s call.
Still, looking forward is intimidating. I know that my path is to learn how to play. It makes me anxious thinking about it. Seriously?! Yeah. I’ve surrounded myself with things that encourage play, yet I so very rarely allow myself time to enjoy them. That’s pretty sad, but I betcha there are a lot of you out there that could say the same thing. But I’m taking it to task and I’m going to learn how to have fun instead of working to death.
Maybe I’ll play a little ring toss with Saturn.
Update: I just read on the news that Saturn is starting to lose its rings. Getting a little taste of its own medicine?!