The Duel of Duality

yin-yang-2024615_640Black or white.  Dark or light.  Good or bad.  Happy or sad.  Which do you choose?  Which is really you?

To everything there are two sides.  We have the choice of which side we want to be, but it too often seems to be an inner duel as to which side is the most powerful.  And too often, we turn to the lesser, the darker, and the easier choice and leave ourselves wondering why we are not satisfied.

The war within is fought by our belief system.  If you are the product of a difficult upbringing, have health issues, frightening surroundings then you likely turn towards the darker side.  It is still always a choice.  So why not choose the light?

Because Fear is a stern master.

We are ego-driven humans and the ego thrives on fear.  The ego wants total control of you.  The ego wants you dependent on its whims of desperation, despair and defeat.  I’ve read that it takes 21 muscles to smile and next to nothing to frown.  (I haven’t fact-checked that.)  If that is true, then it is easy to see why we gravitate towards sadness and disappointment.

But enough of that sorry sh*t.

I had a sh*tty day at work.  Enough that I wanted to crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head, and stay there for the next century.  By some blessed chance of fate, my sweetie didn’t know what to have for dinner and it so happened that this evening was the first of the summer Thursday music and market fest in our neighborhood.  So I suggested we wander over and see what was on the food truck.  A huge amount of battered catfish and fries, which along with a beer I don’t usually drink, will cause me to regret that in the middle of the night.  In spite of the tasty grease-bomb, there was live music, people, dogs, vendors, farmers market wares and just an air of a happy summer evening.  EXACTLY what I needed to pull myself out of my bottom-of-the-sh*pile-funk.  It was a choice, you see.

fencing-1683513_1920We always, always, always have the choice of whether we go towards the light or down in the dark, even if you think the situation is utterly impossible for that.  In those times, we must look deep within and find the light within ourselves, the goodness, the capableness, the loveable-ness.  I told myself that I am intelligent, capable and damn sure know what I’m doing even if some a$$hole disagrees.  So when you are faced with a seemingly dark situation, swish your tip up and yell, En Garde!!

And watch the dark disappear.

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